I fell in love with the wrong person

Life is just life

    "I don't care ,do you care Lizzy?" my dad , Christian ,asked my mom with a questioning glare.

   " I don't , it's up to you ". That's the very moment that made me both happy but really sad. My mom and dad had  just invited my crush to are vacation to the coast of Mississippi. I like him it's not that big of  a secret . That being said my dad picks on me every chance he gets about him . The guy will never go for me though, he thought I was twelve . He even told me that once but I was eating chicken nuggets by the fire place cause I hate shrimp.

   Blinking back into reality just to see  my dad turned back around and walked down to flag my brother  ,Leo, and his friend Riley . Riley is a red head ,tall with thick somewhat curly strait hair, skinny but muscular looks like he has a six pack. He is one handsome man that has my heart to play with and knows it when I'm around him . He can make me blush and giggle just by telling me hello and picking that I'm staring at him , then he'll tell me to stop biting my lip cause I'll make it bleed .

It's a shame he'll never know how much I care when he does that though . He has a girlfriend as far as know . She acts like a brat lip fillers and caked up make up always popping her gum and brags about daddies money. I'm considered with myself in the dating department though . How can she he a guy but I can't ?I've never even been kissed and I'm going into my junior year of high school .I'm being to think I am a weirdo to guys my age . Riley is a senior in college and acts like an adult but, he'll act like a kid . He's age just swings back and fourth all the time. Now all I'm thinking about is I wish and pray he doesn't come and says no .  He doesn't need to know my life stories especially when he's my brothers best friend.

It's been a few days and now I have to wait to see if he is coming with us . I just sit in school I make strait A and go to sit with my friends act like everything is normal . I want to have wishes but wishes don't work facts do that's what I tell myself . That's what I'll do for the whole month . Just create more things to avoid the thought of him . He makes me happy and sad and mixes of emotions it's like I'm on my period . The filling of anxiety and nerves Are beginning to build they starts in the bottoms of the stomach and I feel like my whole face will turn red at the mention of his name so I look down and pretend not to know anything or want to know . I bite my lip and pitter platter with my fingers to distract myself.

I mind my business and blush when he looks at me with those stupid ocean blue eyes and smiles at me and tells my dad "yes "over the phone. The one simplest three letter word that makes me wanna hurl along punch things but I stay calm and move own to doing dishes . My inter self is smiling better than it did all that night at that stupid basketball game at their college.

I walk with my mom to the car to go to the store in town , as I let out little giggles when I tell my dad stupid dad jokes and he complains. I laugh at it though when he finishes most of them . That's the way my dad see me as a kid . Not a lady not a women a kid . And I think as I get in the car , when I stand on the electrical step to the truck and kick my feet over the foam cup that's in the floorboard probably full of stale fries  from lunch a few days back. And clothes on the seat and think that Riley actually saw me .Mads . He saw me , he smiled and he saw me but then ignored me .
You need to keep it together he has a girlfriend, get a grip mads that's what I feel like telling myself as I fall asleep ready for school the next morning. Or until I have to get out of the car and into my house when we get home.