Im on the verge between dying and living my whole damn life. I was a mess, useless, bastard and that's the good way to describe me. Being a middle bastard child was full of expectations and discrimination, sometimes I wanted to end my life sooner, but their's one person who motivates me somehow, my mama was always there whenever i need her she was my strength she gave me hope in every possible way she can. So tell me, how can i end my life when there was a person like her waiting for me to grow and become successful in life? How can I disappoint the only person who believes in me.
Yes we are not wealthy i came from a family who doesn't even afford their daily food, in order for us to eat we need to work our butt off until we die, I live in place full of uneducated person, argument, fist fight, shouting and drug addicts, our community is a garbage area they say, but in times of need i must say they are the best even though we are miserable, that one thing connected us to one another.
Im Selestine del mundo, a middle bastard child currently studying in crest university, where all the rich people offsprings gathered around, you are probably asking how did i become a part of this university? Well sadly i am smart enough to enter this university, i pass the scholarships and exams they have, how did i manage that? That's called determination.
" first day mo na bukas excited kana ba?" I look at Topas who is sitting beside me, i take a deep breath and look at the beautiful sunset in front of us
"Ewan ko feeling ko sasamain ako dun" honestly I don't know what will happen tomorrow i was kinda fuck up and I don't even know how to describe my feelings.
Topas stood up and put his both arms into his head and glance at me with a smile on his face like every thing will be fine. Topas is my childhood friend, we know each other very well even we're not communicating we still manage to understand one another that was our special bound i guess.
Once again, i look at the dazzling unset slowly fading away in thin air, Topas offer his hand to help me stand up and I accepted it right away.
"Uwi na tayo, baka hinahanap kana ng mama mo" we walk away and parted our destinations. Walking in a very dark place was no longer new to me as a matter of facts I'm very comfortable in the darkness.
Uhggg I'm going home again, that thought of me going home was intoxicating, if it's not for my mama i would run away but i can't even imagine i will left my mother in the arms of my evil half sister.
As I'm imagining things and my thoughts is not with me I didn't expect that I'm going to bump into someone. I can't even see him clearly the light coming from the moon was the only thing that indicate that his a he the fact that he is taller than me and more masculine i guess?
Why the fuck am I imagining things like this!? And who is this guy? Why did he fucking corner me!? Why!? I got out so fast by kicking his balls so hard
"Yaahhh! Why did you fucking do that to me!?" He scream with a low tone while holding his lower part in pain
" what do you expect me to do? I don't even know the fuck is you?" I answer him calmly and wait for his response but he didn't respond instead he hold my wrist and run away with me.....
