Canceled - Alevaro

Chapter II

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I hadn't talked to Alvaro since yesterday. Kai told me he's really mad. I feel like shit. Just my luck my period would start too. And my mom was at work. And we're out of tampons and pads. Why does god hate me?

I had to walk to the store and buy them myself. I hated doing that. If I seemed confident enough everyone just thought I was being a dutiful boyfriend but let's be honest, that rarely happened. The cashier stared at me while I checked out. I could feel my heart racing. On the way home I stress ate all the chocolate I had bought.

Once I got home and had calmed down enough I sat down and set up the old camera I had. The quality wasn't the best but it would do. I did a bit of research and knew how to make a YouTube video, so I was hoping it would go well.

I started recording. "Hey everyone! I wanna get straight to the point cause I'm kinda stressed right now. Especially since this isn't really a pleasant video to make. So recently a few girls at my school made a video about how I was in the girls locker room.
"I'll just be blunt. I am transgender. That— that sounds weird. Like a man saying female." I laughed nervously. "Um— anyway. I was born a chick. ... And there goes half my followers." I laughed again. I tend to do that when I'm nervous.
"But yeah. I'm still the same Alejandro you guys know. Nothing has changed, it's just now you know more about me. I haven't gotten any surgery yet or anything. I am on testosterone though. I can— actually, I'm gonna prove it hold on." I got up, went and grabbed my gel and a baby picture, along with my makeup remover.

I ran back to my camera, removed the little makeup I wore, and took a deep breath. "This is the— should I hold this like a beauty guru?" I laughed a little bit. "Hi everyone, welcome to my newest makeup tutorial! Today I'm gonna he using testosterone gel! I like this product because—" I cut myself off laughing, "oh I'm not funny. Anyway that's my T gel and this is a baby picture. I'm— covering the name at the bottom cause I don't like people knowing it. Sorry." I shrugged a little.
"So uh, yeah. Don't cancel me please. I only told Alvaro yesterday. So, like... yeah. I didn't wanna share that shit. But I guess I have to? And for those of you asking why I'm on the boy's soccer team, it's cause my mom and I threw a fit until they let me. Anyway, I'm probably gonna take a while to figure out the new editing software so this isn't gonna go up for a couple days probably, but once it is please don't bring it up frequently? I just wanna be treated like a dude is all. Anyway, bye everyone! Don't cancel me!" I ended the recording before promptly slamming my face on the desk.

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I kept trying to contact Alvaro over the next few days. He told me he just needed some time to cool down. I was worried he was gonna be mad forever...

Shrimp 🍤
Hey. Sorry I took so long. I was just upset. I watched your video :) u were a cute baby.

You
Lmao thanks. Sorry I didn't tell u earlier just nervous ykno

Shrimp 🍤
Nah it's fine.
Have u been watching the comments?

You
No why
R they bad

Shrimp 🍤
Lmao kinda
Idk wuts the usual when u come out but they loosing it

You
Aw shit
Smh
Gonna check later

Shrimp 🍤
Alr alr
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I took a deep breath. I was relieved that he wasn't mad anymore. But nervous as hell to check the comments.