Used To It

Part 1

As i got ready to go out, as usual, i looked at myself in the mirror, i didn't smile anymore, i couldn't remember the last time i smiled. I looked down and tears ran down my face, at that moment the door opened and and Piero told me to hurry up, we were about to leave for a fancy meeting.

The ride to the restaurant was silent, i hadn't said a word all day. When we got there, there were about ten men waiting for Piero to start discussing business and women of course. I wasn't allowed to be present in those conversations so as usual, i sat outside the private area, eating dinner alone. After an hour, some men started to come out and i stood up to meet my husband as i was instructed to do at every meeting so that the other men could see i was his. As they shook hands and took small glimpses at me i could only stand there holding Pieros hand.

I was tired of this but i had already been beaten up too many time for trying to change things. I had learned my lesson.

"Uncle Piero, don't forget mom's birthday tomorrow, bring some wine."- said Alessandro, Pieros nephew, who was marked as the next leader of the family business.

I was taken home since Piero and some other men decided to go to a club. That was fine with me. I took a bit too many sleeping pills and went straight to bed, that was my new favorite habit.

The next day i was told to get ready to go to Eldas birthday, Pieros sister.

At least i had good clothes right? I couldn't complain, i was given money to buy everything i wanted.

When we got to Eldas house, the whole family was there, it was nice seeing people talking and laughing, knowing that they weren't planning killings or making drug deals.

I sat next to the pool and drank some champagne, Elda sat next to me and we had a little chat, she was always nice to me, "you'll get used to this life, just enjoy the luxuries. You'll learn to love Piero and even want to have kids with him, just like i did with my husband. Everything will be fine. "

"i've already tried my best but i know that i'll have to get used to it, i already am."- I said with a light smile.

From sitting all alone, i had had too many glasses of champagne and when i stood up to go to the bathroom i realized that i was a little drunk. I made my way upstairs and opned the bathroom door when i realized Alessandro was in there almost naked with another girl, i stood there with my eyes wide open since i know that wasn't his girlfriend. after a couple of seconds i stut the door and waited outside.

The girl came out almost immediately and Alessandro cursed from the inside of the bathroom as he slammed the door shut. I lightly knocked on the door since i really had to use the bathroom and it opned.

Alessandro-"thanks for that"

Marcela- "well, locks were invented for a reason."

Alessandro chuckled while he looked at himself in the mirror. -"Don't tell Lia what you saw, things are complicated."

Marcela- "don't worry it's none of my business anyways."

As i made my way into the bathroom i tripped and Alessandro caught my arm so i wouldn't end up on the floor. "Are you okay?"- he asked. "yeah, don't worry, i had a little too much to drink, Im fine."

He looked into my eyes like he wanted to say something, like he know there was more to it but in that moment Piero walked by and saw us, he saw Alesandro touching me.

"What's is going on here, is she provoking you Alesso?"-Piero asked.

"No uncle, nothing like that, i was just helping her, she's a little drunk."

FUCK- i said to myself. I stood up straight and looked at Piero, his fist were clenched and he had anger written all over his face.

"GET OUT ALESSO" he screamed.

Alessandro walked away and just as he was about to close the door he look at me and mouthed "Sorry".

The door shut and the yelling began, i couldn't hear a thing, i was lost in my own thoughts, waiting for the punches to start. i just stood there waiting...until they finally came.

I was left laying on the bathroom floor with a swollen lip and a bruised stomach. My makeup began to come off as the tears rolled down my face.

Everyone heard what happened but nobody did anything, that's just how things were.

After some minutes i saw Alessandro next to the door- I was standing in front of the mirror, trying to fix my makeup "I'm sorry for saying that, i didn't know he was going to react this way. I'll tell him it was my fault. " and he started to walk away.

"Alessandro wait, don't do that. He will do worst things to you. Just leave it."-I said.

Alessandro-"Why? why do you put up with this?"

Marcela-"Why do you put up with Lia?"- I smiled and turned to look at him. "i don't have a choice, I've tried to change things and they always end like this. That's just how my life is."

Alessandro- "i wish i could help you little bird, set you free...but we both know that will only get me dead."

Little bird- that's how he called me when we were younger, it suited me, i was trapped. Alesso and i used to have private lessons when were still in school, he was my only friend but as we got older he joined the family business and i became Pieros untouchable wife.

Alessandro walked closer to me, he stood right behind me and laid his hands on the counter so that i was left between him with no way out. " You want out?"- he asked. I couldn't say a word, nothing came out, mainly because i was scared that someone would come in and see us.

He got closer and whispered in my ear "if that's what you want baby girl, i'll help you but it's going to cost you."

I was in shock, he has never treated me this way, specially knowing what his uncle was capable of doing. I just looked at him though the mirror as he traced his nose up and down my neck and slowly started to walk away.

The beginning of the end.