****My crushing story****
IT ALL STARTED IN MY 6TH PERIOD CLASS, BAND. WHEN OSHAYE WAS BEING HIMSLEF IN HIS OWN NASTY WAY EVERYONE AROUND HIM WAS LAUGHING AS WELL AS LOTUS AND I. IN THE MIIDDLE OF A SENTENCE, I LOOKED INTO HIS DARK BROWN EYES AND IT GOT ME SPARKED****. THAT SAME DAY DURING 7TH AND 8TH PERIOD, I WAS LAUGHING AT ALL HIS JOKES. AT NIGHT I DECIDED TO TEXT HIM THAT I LIKE HIM. BIG MISTAKE! I KEPT LYING TO HIM THAT A FRIEND OF MINE LIKED HIM THEN I ADMITTED.
IT WENT A LITTLE SOMETHING LIKE THIS
ME- A FRIEND OF MINE LIKES YOU
HIM- WHO IS SHE?
ME- SHES ME AND WHEN I ASK YOU DO YOU LIKE ME BACK WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?
HIM- WELL SRRY BUT I DON'T LIKE YOU
THAT ONE SENTENCE STARTED RAGE WITH ME AND I WASN'T JEALOUS I WAS HEARTBROKEN. I DIDN'T CARE WHO HE LIKED. HE JUST DIDN'T LIKE ME. NO ONE HAS EVER LIKED ME BEFORE. MY HEART SHATTERED IN A MILLION PIECES </3
BUT I WASN'T GOING TO BE LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS. SOBBING, EATING ICE CREAM, AND WATCHING NETFLIX. NO! THAT WASN'T THE REAL ME. EVEN THOUGH I WAS PHYSCALLY AND MENTALLY CRYING I WASN'T TO GIVE UP. I WAS GONNA SHOW HIM A PIECE OF MY MIND. AFTER CONFRONTING HIM ABOUT HIM BEING A JERK. I GAVE HIM SORTA LIKE THE SILENT TREATMENT, BECAUSE WE WERE REALLY GOOD FRIENDS. AFTER A FEW WEEKS OF ME SHUNNING HIM, I TEXTED HIM ON KIK SAYING THAT "IM REALLY SORRY FOR BEING A 'FEMALE DOG' TO YOU." THEN HE REPLIED "YEP" NO 'IT'S OK' OR 'IT'S FINE' HE VIRTUALLY CALLED ME A FEMALE DOG. THEN I STARTED CATCHING FEELINGS AGAIN. I WOULD SEE HIM LOOK AT ME DURING HOMEROOM AND I WOULD QUICKLY CHANGE MY GLANCE OR LOOK AWAY. BUT I DON'T THINK I SHOULD TRUST MY FRIENDS IN TELING THEM I HAVE FEELING FOR THEM AGAIN. I TOLD THEN I TOLD A JOKE AND MY FRIEND BAILEY THOUGHT I WANTED TO DO THE 'NASTY' WITH LOTUS. EWWW! BUT ANY WAY THE STORY CAN ALWAYS CHANGE BY THE MINUTE.
WRITTEN ON WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 3RD, 2014
REMEMBER WHEN I SAID THE STORY WILL ALWAYS CHANGE. WELL IT HAS CHANGED A LOT! SO YESTERDAY, I NEEDED SOME HELP WITH MY MATH HOMEWORK, SO I COUNTED OM HIM. I GOT A COUPLE OF HELP, THEN I ASKED "WANNA PLAY TRUTH OR DARE?" HE SAID "SURE" SO WE STARTED PLAYING. HE WAS SORTA A DAREDEVIL SO HE ALWAYS CHOSE DARE. I DARED HIM TO LIST THE GOOD THINGS ABOUT ME (I WAS HAVING SORTA OF A BAD DAY) I WANTED MY CONFIDENCE TO RISE. BUT THEN HE SIMPLY TEXTED ME "NOTHING" I WAS CRYING REAL TEARS RIGHT THERE. THAT LOWERED MY SELF ESTEEM TO -499098. SO THERE I COULDN'T HOLD IT IN. I PROMISED TO FROM NOW TO KEEP MY SECRETS TO MYSELF.
THE NEXT DAY, WHICH WAS TODAY, I HAVE TWO FRIENDS AMBAR AND BRYANNA. I TOLD THEM ABOUT WHAT HE SAID, AND MY FEELINGS FOR HIM. THEY COULDN'T BELIEVE ME. THEY THOUGHT NOW I GOT WAY OUT OF HAND ( OR HEART I SHOULD HEART I SHOULD SAY, LOL) WHEN WE GOT TO SCHOOL, I TALKED TO A COUPLE OF FRIENDS IN HOMEROOM, MINDING MY BUSINESS THEN I HEAR MY NAME. THAT'S NO GOOD. A FEW HOURS PASS LUNCH, WHICH IS AT 11:30. WHILE I WAS HANGING WITH AMBAR, SHE KEPT MENTIONING LOTUS'S NAME AND I WOULD TURN 'BEET RED' BECAUSE I WAS EMBARRESED. NO LIE, THE SOUND OF HIS NAME WOULD MAKE ME FLUSH LIKE CRAZY. NOW A FEW HOURS PAST THAT, IT WAS BAND. WE ALL THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO SEE "THE POLAR EXPRESS" BORRRIIINNNNGGGG!!!
WE WERE WRONG. WE WERE GOING TO PLAY PERCUSSION. LIKE DRUMS AND SYMBOLS. I WAS IN GROUP 2 SO I GO BEFORE LOTUS' GROUP. THIS TIME HE WENT BEFORE US SO HE PLAYED THE SNARE DRUMS FIRST. WHEN HE GOT UP THERE I WAS BLUSHING LIKE I CAKED MY FACE WITH BLUSH THIS MORNING. HE PLAYED THE REQUIRED SONG AND HE PLAYED SO WELL, SO I GOT 20% TURNED ON. JUST A LITTLE BIT, JUST A BIT. WHEN HE WAS DONE I COULDN'T BREATHE, I WAS RED, AND WAS HAPPY. SO NOW AT 5:06pm I KEEP ASKING HIM IF WANTS TO OOVOO. EXCUSES EXCUSE SO I DON'T HAVE ANY COMMUNICATION EXCEPT TEXTING, AND RIGHT NOW HE TEXTED ME " I DON'T LIKE YOU" AND I TRIED TO MAKE IT SEEM OK =, BUT ON THE INSIDE AND OUT, IM BREAKING APART. BUT CANT WAIT UNTIL THE WEEKEND
Written on----- Friday, December 5, 2014. [Christine[
SO TODAY I TEXTED LOTUS LATE AT NIGHT BEFORE I WENT TO SHOWER. WHEN I WENT TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH, MY SISTER MUSTHAVE STOLEN MY PHONE AND WAS TEXTING HIM "DO U THINK MY SISTER IS PRETTY?" IT HAD MORE MESSAGES IT WILL JUST TAKE UP SPACE, SO YEAH. HE ANSWER WAS SIMPLE. "NO" AND WHEN I CAME BACK, I SEE MESSAGES I HAVE'NT SENT SO I ASK HIM "WAS MY SISTER TEXTING YOU?" JUST TO TEST HIM OUT. THEN HE TEXTED "NO" THIS S.O.B IS LYING TO ME!!!!. THEN I SAY " Y YOU LYING TO ME" AGAIN HIS RESPONSE IS SIMPLE " I DIDN'T WANT HER TO GET IN TROUBLE
