You'll miss being in love

Companionship

That point in the relationship where in you will miss being in love. 

You'll miss the butterflies in your stomach. You'll wish that it was just like the first time you've met. And then you'll realize, there's tears in your eyes kasi yun yung panahong alam mong hindi mo na maibabalik. And at the same time, it is something na kahit kailan hindi mo pwedeng irequest at ipagawa sa taong mahal mo. Ang arte noh? But it's different. Having someone give you that feeling of being loved kasi gusto nya is very much different kapag ginawa nya yun dahil sinabi mo. So being the hopeless romantic that you ever was, you'd rather shut up and let it be. 

While trying to eraser the thought, na baka "Companionship" nalang talaga at wala na yung love. 

You see, after 10, I started reading and re reading wattpad stories, again. I stopped when I met the guy I am with now. And yes, 10 years na kami. turning 11 years actually. I met him in college when I was sixteen. And now what? I am 27 pero hopeless romantic padin at nagbabasa ng wattpad. immature noh? yeah right. 

But seriously, ang aga kong nag mature, hindi ko inenjoy yung times na sweet at clingy pa sya. Which was at the start of the relationship. Minadali ko lahat, sabi ko kasi, dun din naman mapupunta so why wait? Landi no? lol 

But it was the move that I did regret until now. Now that we have kids, 2 girls and they are twins and are turning 7 in July. 

Going back to wattpad made me realize. Sana pala hindi ko minadala yung masasayang moments. Sana pala hindi ko sya sinungitan nung naglalambing pa sya. Sana pala hili ko agad hiniling na mag mature and mag settle down kami agad. 

Not that I regret what we have now. I just miss that feeling. Kasi once you get to the peak of the relationship where in masyado na kayong komportable sa isa't isa, I don't know. It just feels like the spark is gone. 

It's gone kasi kampanti ka na. Wala na yung petty things na pinagaawayan nyo dati. Wala nang selos kasi nga kampante ka na. Wala na din yung pagiging over protective kasi takot kang mawala sya. However the saddest part of it all? Wala na yung sweetness. Yung pagiging clingy, yung tipong excited ka lagi. Nawawala kasi araw araw na kayong magkasama. Magkatabi matulog. Unlike nung college, tatakas ka pa para lang makasama sya. (flashback lol)

This is what Wattpad made me realize recently. Nakakaiyak nga e, namiss ko kasi. Tapos napasulat ako bigla. ahahaha

If I get lucky and people would actually read this post. Enjoy it while it last. Wag magmadali. And don't be like us. Never let go of that spark, the excitement and of course making sure that your partner feels loved and cared for. 

Kahit pa 20years na kayo, 30 years or 50 years. Age should never stop you from loving the person the way you did before. Whenever you feel like the spark is starting to fade, just ignite it again. Do crazy things or what not. Never let it die. Kasi nakakalungkot. You'd feel empty, envy and lonely. And it sucks. 

lol :P