Emotion

Entry 2

Days I feel better and feel much connected to my life. Yet one person can change my mood so much. How do I feel better. How do I change back into that happy feeling I once felt. 

This past week I got in a disagreement with my best friend. All I did was state my opinion and she got upset. She has not responded. I can feel the past eight year of friendships slowly fading. I've called, I've apologized. I cried and felt y sorrows. 

Little does she know how selfish she is. Little does she know how long it took me to actually trust her. She always shared her feelings and her moments. I didn't, I had learned that in our friendship she was the superior one. She is not their for me. She is not their for me when my Tio passed away. She is not here for me when my grandma passed away. I feel abounded by her. Was I wrong? Am I wrong? I'm always wrong. I'm at fault. I should have stayed quiet. I should of just agreed. My heart is heavy. I wanna disappear. Forgive me... Cat. Forgive me or please give me closer.  

Let me breath and let me be selfish . I don't want us to end..I want us to keep dreaming.