A huge argument happened that night in the large hotel room. breaking each other's heart to piece, relentless they screamed and poured they're heart out. Bleeding, they're heart were bleeding love. In their eyes only fears of the end of an undying love, they could feel their heart breaking so hard that no words could ever soothe their unfathomable pain.
"you're not letting me in, since when did we became like that tell me, what happened to us, we used to be much so much more, why aren't you talking and opening yourself to me tell me Zayn..."
"I don't know Harry, I don't know... But you know you and I aren't the only reason. And god knows you known how much I want to leave, I don't want to leave you guys, but I need it for my fucking mental well-being"
"What about me then ?! how can I stay here without you? Zayn, please we are in this together I don't want you to leave!" Harry put a trembling hand on his lover's arm, the pain in his voice made Zayn's heart swell with sorrow.
"Don't you think I've stayed long enough, love I—I can't anymore it's killing me, I cannot in those conditions, and to be fair—I.. I feel like it's not the same between us now.." Zayn said going to the patio door.
Harry hold his breath, how could, how did things change between them, when did it became like that. He couldn't breath anymore.
He got up of the bed and went toward his lover's back. He stopped for a second and hugged him. Feeling his lover's breath in his neck Zayn turned around freeing himself from a longing and loving hold.
"Why, Zayn why are you thinking our—how can you think everything between us changed?" harry said reckless and trying to look at his lover eyes, feeling that the situation wasn't going well at all.
" Fuck you know all we do now is fucking arguing" distancing himself from Harry, " all we do is arguing then fuck, fuck then arguing. We aren't going nowhere, and damn I'd be fool if I said still believe you loved me as much as you did before"
"what the fuck are you talking about? Yes, we are fighting than making up it's what couple do—"
" No couple talk, they argue and they talk, fuck I feel like I'm a fucking heroin of some fucking fanfiction, you know the situation where they start of being sexfriends then one catch feelings, while the other is scared or at least to show it to other people."
Harry crouched down earing Zayn words, and looked at him tears in his eyes, waiting for Zayn to finish. "I don't feel like you are in love with me anymore at least not as much as me".
"What make you think that, HUH what could make you FUCKING think that Zayn for the love of god! You know I love you, do you want me to scream it to the fucking world I will, why the fuck would you think, how am I not giving not enough love? Fuck aren't you the one dating, you keep saying you love me but be up front with me, I know you fucking love her, who is fucking depriving someone of their love here? We don't talk but whose fault is that Zayn? Who's for fuck sake?"
Zayn taken aback by Harry outburst and his tears strained face left a sob.
"You don't understand the love I hold for you Harry; I may have been with her, and loved her, but I fucking told her that I was in love with you, that I am. And before you jump at me asking me why I'm fucking talking to her, she has been supporting me when you didn't, she knows me more than you styles, she ask me how I feel, I was seeking that from you, so much I was desperate, and I know I'm not talking but fuck you know how much of a little talker am I."
Zayn left his eyes up to suppress his tears, Harry felt his heart break once more by his and Zayn's words. "how many times I've wanted to talk to you, but the more I wanted the more you distanced yourself from me Harold, I've been trying but how many times you ignored me. Fuck I went to seek comfort to my fucking ex, MY EX!"
Then the words they never thought would ever leave one's mouth came out, "let's stop this whatever the name of that relationship we have. I can't deal with that anymore Harry for fuck sake you are the only one I found consistent in this all fuckery, but now that I can't even, I don't feel like you are there for me... let's just stop hurting each other, for these past few month since I told you I seriously wanted to leave we have only done that"
he breathed after his tirade, his voice breaking again when he said the last few words "please let's leave this here, together I love you I don't want to end things that badly "
"I'm not, I can't, please Zayn to don't that you are the only one I want and that I need..."
he looked at the sight Infront of him and is heart brook, for how long have Zayn been this broken? He lost so many weight, his soft and lovely face was hollowed, he looked like he hasn't been sleeping for days. He looked back down, if only he had left his hard feelings and look at his love he would had known and maybe it wouldn't be that late, they wouldn't be in this situation.
"I love you Zayn, I love you, and I'll be damned if I ever stop." He turned to look the moon toward the glass, "do whatever you want, know that you are the one who gave up."
Zayn felt his heart clench so hard that he thought he would pass out, an unbearable pain went through his body, he nodded and turn then left the room.
Harry earing the door close, collapsed to the ground letting a harrowing plea.
His face, his smile all coming one at the time, he felt his heart break and break, what was he doing letting him go like that he needed to tell him how much he didn't meant what he said and that he would always love him.
He got up and run to the door, run to the stairs and saw him distancing himself in the hallway, "Zayn! Zayn! I'm sorry, please !!".
Zayn, left hearing his pleas, crying his heart out one in the car heading for the airport.
Harry fell into his knees crying his heart out, the boys came running to see this painful scene. Harry crying his heart out for Zayn, begging him to forgive him and to not leave.
Louis run to close the door so that no one would know about the commotion. Niall and Liam went to hug Harry, who started to struggle to break free of their arms.
"Please let me, please I need him, PLEASE PLEASE."
His cries were so heartbreaking, the boys having heard all the bedroom conversation felt for their mate but also for Zayn that had just left. But also, because they knew One Direction wouldn't be the same and that they would probably not see they mate in a long time.
This was the beginning of long and unbearable pain both for the lovers, but also for the members and fans.
"Cause you left me in the hallway
Give me some more
Just take the pain away
Just let me know I'll be at the door, at the door
Hoping you'll come around" Meet me in the Hallway -- Harry Styles.
"We messed around until we found the one thing
We said we could never ever live without" I Won't Mind – Zayn Malik
