It was two and a half weeks of torture until my phone decided to give me the hope needed to finish strong. Only 9 days left until I can see you -J. Every night I wrote about her and thought about the choices I had made. She had a reputation to uphold, people to please, and I had myself and my best friend who I was in love with too. I had passed up fucking my friend that I loved to save myself for a girl I barely knew who was the high risk choice. I had heard the stories of her breaking hearts and fucking bitches. I, in the moment, made a decision that looked like I had set myself up to get hurt. But I'm not hurt in fact I’m better than ever. She holds me when I'm upset and wipes my tears away. I can be real with her and not be scared of saying the wrong thing. I see that look in her eyes the same one she gets around her friends. She genuinely cares. I hold her when she’s upset and just listen when that’s what she needs, and never want it to change. The girl I admired but had never spoke to, opened herself up and earned respect. I may not always understand her or know what it feels like in her situation but I’m here. I will never know or understand the pain of black stereotypes or why she’s so passionate about it and she'll never understand growing up in Radnor, or why hate that I have an advantage because who my parents are, but I’ll always be there for her and she'll always be there for me. Isn't that all the matters? I took a risk and ended up with the jackpot. Who would have known that tough Jai would have a soft side and need someone to hold her? Who would have known that love exists and is the most irrational thing? A princess from one world who was rescued by what turned out to be a princess from another world.
