Always

Never

I never asked to be this way. I never wanted to be this unhappy. Life had given me you, the best thing that ever happened to me. But like all good things, you came with a price. You had left me, but I could never get you back, I can never see your face even if I wanted to. It's been 3 days since the car crash. Turns out I was barely hit by the car, and I just fainted. I wish I was dead. Maybe I will be soon, who knows at this point really. I am left here, staring at the stars, by the park we used to go to often. I lay here, on the dewy grass at half past 2 a.m, re-thinking my life. Looking up at the stars, and the universe itself, I realized something. I have changed. I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over. I don't trust everyone, and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. I distance myself from people, because in the end, they're only going to leave me. I have changed because I have realized that I'm the only person I can depend on. But you were there for me. I am forever grateful for you, and all you did whilst being alive. I am grateful for our forever, even if it didn't last as long as it should've.