Toxic | BTS FF

01

Ahn Ahra's POV

Getting married was a nightmare for me, especially to someone you don't even love. I believe you get used to being with one person all the time must be boring, when they're so toxic.

This goes out to my fiance, Oh Jae Hyun. My cousin from my dad's side. My soon to be husband, whom I hate with all of my will. Not because he's toxic, it's what I actually experienced being in a relationship with him to get along.

"Ahra-ya..." Jaehyun's voice ranged in my ears as he entered the room.

"Babe, we're getting married in less than a week!" He said as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Jae, I'm not in the mood." I coldly replied.

I swayed his arms away, as I started to get out of the room. I felt like suffocating while being in the same room as him.

When he grabbed my wrist, slammed onto the wall pinning me down. His eyes glaring at me and his earring dangling. He tightened the hold on my wrists.

I winced as the pain was so unbearable.
"Leave me alone, I'm done with all of your shit." I replied, my voice quite as flashbacks ran through my head as what happened before when I answered back.

"Oh, so little miss over here has the courage to answer back with her filthy mouth?" He gritted his words through his teeth, grabbing her hair.

I hold onto his hands because of the pressure on my scalp and looked him the eyes. "I'm not the same Ahra you're dealing with you sick psychopath!" I said, my eyes filling with tears, burning with rage.

He was about to say something when, "Jaehyun aigi, Ahra-ya!" His mom said as she was opening the door, he quickly pulled me off from the wall and hugged me.

"Oh eomma, what happened? Do you want anything?" He said, making his voice sweet as he tightened the hug.

"Oh my God, you guys are so cute! You both reminds me of my good old days. Ah..." She dreamily said as I faked a smile. Jaehyun kissed my cheek and I had to held back the urge to gag and wipe it off.

"Eomma, you wanted to say something?" I said, wanting to get out of here. "Aigoo, I guess you're in a hurry to do the nasty with Jaehyun isn't it?" She said.

I mentally rolled my eyes and acted as if I blushed, Jaehyun brushed his body against mine. I want to kick him in his guts!

"Okay, I want to tell you both that the wedding is almost in a week. So I wanted to go buy the dress for my soon to be beautiful daughter in law. Of course, you'll go too! Get ready darling!" She said as she caressed my cheeks.

She was like a mother that I never had, I don't know where did she get this cheap ass douchbag son from.

"Sure eommoni, I'll get ready. Wait for me, hm?" I said as I slipped his arms off.
She smiled and then went out of the room. Picking my handbag, wearing my, and leaving the room before Jaehyun pulled me and left a rough kiss on my lips.

"I'll be waiting." He whispered against my neck as I quickly left the room. I heaved a breath that I didn't knew I was holding and sighed. What have I gotten my self in? Life is so cruel, ugh!

All of this wouldn't happen if mom hadn't passed away and dad wasn't in need of money. My younger brother, Jisung who's eighteen is trying his best to provide money to help dad, but guess what dad does?

Nothing. He's a drunkard every since mom passed away. He doesn't even know what's happening to me. I wish I could just go to a mountain and yell out my thoughts.

All of the things that I've bolted since forever. From the day I was bullied to this day. I've been good my whole life and never spoke about my feelings, but there is always a constant pain that hurts me so much, I can't talk about it neither cry. Crying is not always a solution. It just burns your heart and make your pain just a little numb and then you get hit in the same place, the pain get desensiting.

Now I have been through so much, I'm almost heartless. Jaehyun made me  heartless. He tortured me, mentally, physically, emotionally and verbally. He did everything to make my life worst. Why? Well, it's quite funny.

When we were younger, we didn't get along and were always bickering. Which made our relationship more difficult. He would do things that I certainly disagreed to. I saw him killing Jisung's fish, Robin. I remember how Jisung was crying because of Robin's death. I wanted revenge. I knew his weakness.

Shown down infront of everyone. I thought of bring him down infront of everyone by doing the most horrible stuff ever. I told his girlfriend that he was  cheating on her with two more girls and how he's leading her on. I wasn't in my right mind while doing that because they even thought of eloping and getting married and how he's been sexually harassing girl, which was true and leaked his nudes.

She later on broke up with him that day infront of the whole school and insulted him. He was also embarrassed when his truth was out and was claimed as sexual abuser and about his nudes. He was shocked, he didn't think anyone would get them.

From that day onwards, our battle began. Oh Jae Hyun VS. Ahn Ah Ra. More tragic moments where he ruined my life.

Hey guys, this is Aliya! I'm so glad that my lazy ass wrote this lol ahah. I'm so happy and excited for the up coming chapters and my thoughts that I'll share with you all. have funny reading until then ma3asalam💜👉🏻👈🏻(AND I KNOW THAT BABY JAEHYUN ISN'T LIKE THATS SORRY LOL SKSJJD)