~ Trapped in heaven ~

Chapter 10: Prom

I wanna look confident, I wanna be tough
I spent 24 years alone, hiding from everyone
But then you came along and we fell in love
I'm not used to being seen this much by anyone

I've been invisible since I was a child

I'm good at comforting myself when I cry
And all this time I didn't know the reason why
But I can see it now with you by my side

When you look at me
When you ask me how I'm doing
When you take the time to get to know me
It's all too much
When you talk to me
It's the simple things that kill me
And I love the way you love me
But I feel like I don't deserve it
I don't deserve it

The way I see myself, it isn't right
Undeserving, so unworthy of a minute of your time
And I just can't be myself, I try so hard
I want to earn love and affection so I play my part

I've been invisible since I was a child

It's hard to sit here now and let you see me cry
And yeah it's painful always keeping this inside
But when you look into my eyes I wanna run and hide

When you look at me
When you ask me how I'm doing
When you take the time to get to know me
It's all too much
When you talk to me
It's the simple thing that kill me
And I love the way you love me
But I feel like I don't deserve it

I feel like I deserve to be alone
I feel like I am worst than everyone
And I've always felt this way
But you still love me as I am
You still want me and I just don't understand

When you look at me
When you ask me how I'm doing
When you take the time to get to know me
It's all too much
When you talk to me
It's the simple things that kill me
And I love the way you love me
But I feel like I don't deserve it

When you look at me

When you ask me how I'm doing
When you take the time to get to know me
It's all too much
When you talk to me
It's the simple things that kill me
And I love the way you love me
But I feel like I don't deserve it

I love the way you love me

But I feel like I don't deserve it
I don't deserve it

I was holding her hand the entire time I was singing. I was looking into her beautiful eyes the whole time. I finally got to see her, to touch her after all these months. When we finished performing, the whole audience started clapping and some people even recognized us, screaming Cimorelli on repeat.

"Now you know why I used to sing for you, why I used to hide the places where I was working with my sisters from you. Jasmine, I am Lauren Cimorelli and I am famous. I don't care if you will yell at me or leave me for my fame. I just couldn't hold it in me anymore. I am sorry." I was about to walk away but she grabbed my hand.

"Lauren, this was beautiful. This whole thing you arranged just for me. I am not mad at you but I am glad that you finally told me. To be honest, I found it out longer time ago. Famous or not, I fell in love with just a human too. And I have never been more in love."

"What, how did you find it out?"

"Laur, I am not stupid. Thank your siblings for naming your band by your surname. I just googled it."