hello ..
2 years
i feel like i've changed a lot. there's no one left on here i had ties with and there really never was so im going to pour our everyrhinf i feel right here. and ill publish it too cause it doesn't matter. im so sick of lying and lying and lying and lying and i feel like everything i do all my lies just add up n up i dont understnd why im a pathological liar..? well atleast i admit it . but its a problem. at first i lied to myself bout things going on . like mum and nic and all that and i guess its true the lies made me feel better. but now i cant stopp!!! i cant stop lyinggg ahhh god i wish god could make me stop why am i ranting about being a liar?? cause its hard to stop theh just pour out of my mouth its a big wtf and a big doozy ahahah this is so dumbbbb
im so dumb im so dumb and my lifee is meaningless. completely meaningless and pointless and has no direction so i guess i'll make my contribution to the world hy lying OMGGG i hate myself and that is the root of it i guess i donntknow whay is going on in my head.
to be honest i popped an eddy not too long ago or maybe i didn't? everyone every person is so blind to lies it's so easy to lie and maybe thats why i love lying so much. once you start on one you build up n up and no one ever knowss no one notices no one thinks its you until you slip upppp and guess what baby? theo never slips up hes a god hes everything u wanna be
im back on here cuz i remember a girl i used to love on here lots and she better not be on here cuz who the fuck spends their time on wattpad i dont know why i did it was a lonely summer 2 years ago and now im here in my flat popping eddies n doing tabs every other night ahaaaaaa jk no im not jk jk am i okay? no. and thats okay but im okay anyways i was genuinely IN LOVE over the internet never saw the girl never heard her voice she lived in usa for christs but i still loveddd her so fuckin much i had dreams about her and i thinkk thats just a little crazy inittt i dunno and if she sees this but i doubt i will ill let her know that i was ocmpletely enthralled 100% in love and im sorry for up and leaving but what happened happened and das crazy
oh well i will publish this come back to it in a year or so and cringe the n post another chapter similar to this one. gnight
