(English ver) I'm (Not) Allow to Love You // 널 사랑할 수 없(있)어

I'm (Not) Allow to Love You Part 5

So it might sound typical but listen to my story
나는 변명 따윈 질색이지만

I hate giving excuses
널 놓치면 안 될 것 같아 난

But I don't think I can lose you
어제 딴 여자와 밥을 먹었어

I ate dinner with another girl yesterday
니가 미워서 너무 미워서

Because I hated you, I hated you so much
니가 그 남자를 생각하는 게

Because I can see you
매일 난 눈에 보여서

Thinking of him everyday

삐뚤어지면 날 봐 줄까 봐

Maybe you'll see me if I act badly
이렇게라도 니 관심을 돌려

I try to gain your attention like this
Dara dara dadada
I don't wanna let you go
어떡해야 널 가질 수 있니

What can I do to have you?

거짓말이라도 해봐 좀

At least lie to me
빈말이라도 잊겠다고

Even if you don't mean it, tell me you'll forget him
희망고문이라도 해봐

Even if it's hope torture, do it
빈틈을 좀 보여줘

Show me some kind of flaw
내 자리는 어디도 없어

There is no spot for me
최소한의 숨이라도 쉬게 맘을 열어줘

Open your heart so at least I can breathe a little

(NU'EST– Love Without Love 사랑 없는 사랑)

"Oppa! Oppa!"

I came to my senses when Youngkyong nudged my arm.

"Oh yes, Youngkyong?"

"What is oppa doing here alone?"

I just realized that I was sitting on a park bench alone. I do not know how long I sat here, dusk had arrived.

"Let's go home together."

"Oh, sure. I'll take my bag and returned the racket to the locker first."

"Let's go together."

Was what I saw just a hallucination? I wanted to ask Youngkyong, but I do not have enough courage. Youngkyong, do you have feelings for me, even if it's just a little?

"For oppa."

She pushed a small white bag to my chest.

"This..."

"Chocolate for oppa. A reply of the chocolate last month."

She was smiling, beautiful. But I can't think. My mind is very disturbed at this time.

***

"Heo Chungdae."

Chungdae blinked several times.

"What happened? You look not concentrate. Maybe we continue the meeting tomorrow?"

I was a bit worried. Last week I noticed Chungdae wasn't shouting too much, even some of the time he spent by daydreaming. I even worried because he looking lost in his thought when he has an important meeting with me. In May there will be a school sport festival and he is the representative from the Students Committee for this festival, according to the Students Committee meeting. Normally he would be very excited in matters like this.