To some,
Love is a beautiful feeling
To me,
It's terrifying.
I don't know how to love you
When you hold my heart
3,300 miles away.
The sickness is spreading
We knew this.
But now we don't know
When our gazes will meet again
Or our hands
Or our bodies.
I fell slowly at first
Then dove head first
Into the shallow waters
Hoping you'd rescue me
From the headaches.
I felt your strong hands lift me
Your lips caress mine
And then nothing
I was drowning again
You were off saving someone else.
Maybe you were scared
Maybe you hadn't realized
You left me for dead
You left me on my own
Struggling to breath.
But then suddenly
You were there again
With more urgency
You pulled me ashore
Our gazes met
And we fell into each other.
But that wasn't enough
We don't need words
Yet I can't help but think
I should've uttered three
Before you waved "adios!"
And you were gone again.