Most of the times when i look around i feel like everything is not real. I sometimes feel like im not alive at all. I dont get much emotions like used too but its ok at least i wont get hurt by the society anymore.
Thats what i thought during early 2019 till Jan 2020.
Im getting too attached again. My heart is getting soft, again. Im starting to care, again. Pain is waving at me. I know after this school year those people will leave me just because we'ee no longer classmates just like how they treated their old friends.
I feel pathetic. But somehow i donnot regret it. For now i wanna cherish the moment. At least my life isnt that boring anymore. Im not abandoned, yet.
But its ok this is life. We just need to get used to it. But somehow i cant. Lol i think im crazy. But i like it. My mind is all messed up. But im happy, for now.
