I was so angry for so long because I knew the pains I would undoubtedly endure the next Day. The physical and mental manipulations that would break me down and then tear me to shreds yet im the one apologizing. It was a loop de loop roller coaster of a life. I cried He yelled I cried He hit me I cried He apologized for taking it so far because "baby girl you make me crazy, you know I love you and if you didnt do this or that then I wouldnt have had to do what I did .... it was not me... i cant believe I did that to you." Then the argument is over. Sometimes for minutes. Sometimes for hours. But the fighting never left a day untouched. Never a day to breath. And then it starts again. I cried he yelled i cried he hit me i cried.....
The ride had no end and I was starting to get sick of the ups and the downs and the loop de loops. The man that I loved and gave everything to was just supposed to love and protect me. But he was the one who I needed to be protected from. He broke the hardest bone in my body with his bare hands and he shattered part of my face to match my self esteem. To match my heart. To match my life.
