*click click*

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These days are the same.

wake up

watch you get ready for work

dreading the moment you'll actually leave.

until you do.

pout about how far away 4:30 is.

apply for jobs

wait 

and

wait

and wait

and

wait

for 

4:30pm

then I hope and hope 

you had a good day,

and are in a good mood.

if you are, then maybe we'll go on an adventure

or to see my brother

maybe take care of the ferrets,

then we'll figure out dinner, 

watch an episode of whatever show we're watching

then around 6pm ish

it's like you leave again

*click click*

the computer turning on.

games.

once again I have to find a way to kill the time until your next to me.

hours and hours go by

until I wake up around 2am to see you in bed with me

softly asleep.

around this time I usually feel frustrated, 

how much depending on if it was a bad day. 

usually I cuddle up next to you

and eventually drift to sleep.

Although if you had a bad day at work

when you get home 

*click click* 

and I wont see him in bed until 2 am

when I wake up filled with frustration 

2 am turns to 4 am 

and i miss you.


Today you got on at 5

*click click*

around 8 I asked if you wanted to shower

and after you just got right back on.

I wanted you to fuck me

and you knew that 

It breaks my heart a bit

to know 

that you'd rather play games then have sex with me. 


  A/N: Just for some context,  I'm 19 these days, so you don't have to cringe to hard.


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