I wish...
I wish we could go back to a simpler time
Where material things didn't mean as much as they do now
Where it didn't matter what car you drove,
What clothes you had,
What latest and most expensive technology you had,
What house you lived in,
How much looks matter like they do now,
The time where we could be kids, play outside and not worry about being stolen or shot,
Kick a ball around with people we viewed as our best friends who...sadly as you get older turn to people you don't even know or trust anymore,
I wish...
We were kids again and felt like we didn't have a care in this world,
But now seeing the world change before your eyes is...absolutely insane.
Where the world and your own home is not even a safe place anymore,
Where you stay up at night looking at the sky and can't help but just hear sirens,
Where you can't even watch the news anymore without children being killed by their own parents or vise versa.
I wish...
Growing up wasn't so hard,
That being a teenager wouldn't mean popping pills and seeing therapists to help with the suffering and depression you hide deep down from everybody, because in this world, everybody has trials of their own...no one is safe
No one feels or shows that love anymore,
And no one really cares to try to.
Not being happy and pretending to be, is normal
Putting on a mask to cover your true feelings and insecurities, is normal
Not knowing who to trust because you've been hurt by so many people and the one person you wanted to be in your life the most, is normal
Being betrayed and hurt...it's normal
Everything that's supposed to be something that happens every now and then has become the normal.
I wish...
There was a way to fix myself without pills and counseling,
To have what some people may call "a normal childhood"
To not have this constant feeling of weakness and the want to isolate myself for fear of judgment and hurt,
To have a steady sleep schedule instead of crying myself to sleep several nights in a row and having to wake up in the morning, acting like everything is fine...
I wish I was fine.
