change .

4 words.

what to do now?

it seemed like a harmless question, but one i had no answer for. i had been stuck in limbo for as long as i could remember. feeling as if my time was ticking by, and feeling the pressure of my parents hand.

i always choked under pressure.

sometimes, i felt if i just took myself out of the equation then things would be better. however, they wouldn't, mixing pain with more pain wouldn't cancel it out. just make another travesty, yet i somehow always managed to make situations worse.

i intended to not to do that this time. so, as i watched the snow melt away, i felt a sense of my inner demons being swept away. i remembered i am, and always will be in control.

it was in that moment, in quiet resolution, that i realized that everything takes time. education takes time, figuring out your life takes time, and most importantly, love takes time. oh, i was ready to love myself, and with great vigor.

however, i knew it was no simple task, for there are no simple tasks in this world. you have to work for things, and with that construct in my head, i knew that whatever i set my mind too wouldn't come easy. i strangely felt a sense of ease in knowing that everyone goes at their own speed.

so take your time but don't take too long. there is a whole world out there ready for you, you just need to be ready for it. with time and dedication, you can do anything you want.

i was determined to do just that.

so i took my melancholy heart, and i turned my back on everything that brought my life chaos. i did what was positive for me, for once in my life, i started to care. i cared about the image i reflected on people. i cared about taking the right path in life. i cared about my own well-being. i cared about life.

some things are easier said than done, and that's what you have to keep in mind. when you want to change be ready for the long haul. this world is full of beautiful things, beautiful new experiences.

are you ready to take the plunge?