I just stared at myself in the mirror for a couple of minutes while Sofia was asleep in bed.
I changed and it's the opposite of being changed for the better.
Mi amore Callie says quietly.
I turned to her and I had tears in my eyes.
I walked towards her and she looked at me sympathetically.
Oh mi amore que pasa Callie asks hugging me.
I--I missed you momma I missed you a lot I say.
We talk on the phone all the time Callie says.
But it's not the same I wish you won custody over Sofia and I--I hate it at home without seeing you I say.
Honey don't say that about your mom she's trying her best to take care of you and Sofia and to do work at the same time Callie says.
Can I stay with you for a while I ask Callie.
Uh I'll have to talk to your mom about it but we'll see Callie says.
Ok I say.
Ahora, vamos a llevarte a la cama bien Callie says.
Bien I say to her.
Puedo dormir contigo esta noche? I ask her.
Si hija Callie says.
I already had my pj's on and already brushed my teeth so I just went to bed with her.
Did you ever have sex with mom in this bed I ask her.
Yeah all the time Callie says.
Eso es bruto I say.
Callie laughs.
Aún la amas? I ask.
Sí y creo que siempre lo haré Callie says.
Then why did you get a divorce I ask.
Because we were not only hurting our marriage we were hurting you and Sofia and we couldn't let that happen any longer Callie says.
Oh I say.
But, we love you so much honey Callie says.
I know but I miss you two being friends or being happy your happiness matters too I say to Callie.
She looked at me shocked.
You were always smiling when you were with her and you were always happy now your not showing the smile that always helps me when I feel sad I say.
Callie hugs me.
I love you baby Callie says.
I love you too Momma pero quiero que seas feliz I say to her.
Soy feliz Sofía y me haces feliz Callie says.
I know I say.
I then turn towards her and snuggle into her and she puts her arm around me.
Te amo momma I say.
Yo también te quiero mija Callie says.
I fall asleep in her arms.
We both woke up to Sofia jumping on the bed.
Sofía en serio por qué tienes que ser tan molesto I say to her.
What Sofia asks confused.
Nothing I say.
Avery no digas eso de tu hermana Callie says.
