Prologue w/ author's note:
Hi, my name is Nevaeh Noelle Rose. I'm 18 Years old, on my senior year of high school. I live in London, England. I'm the outcast of the school. Nobody really talks to me. I usually just sit alone at the "loser table" for lunch, or I just eat in the girls bathroom, don't tell anyone though, that's the last thing I need, more humiliation. I used to have friends, but only like two real ones, but I pushed them out of my life, accidentally, stupid me.
So now I'm left alone, all alone, in this big crazy world. I get bullied, hard. My dad is always at work, and the only times he's ever at home, he's with his girlfriend. My mom, well she's in prison for life, she murdered my best friend, Deliyla, or should I say my sister, that's only a year younger than me. It hurts every time I think of her. In the end, she's the only one that was crazy enough to put up with me. Nothing ever goes right for me.
I'm the girl who never talks to anyone, who completely shuts everyone out, whether they're trying to help me, or they're trying to hurt me. Did I mention that I love One Direction? *quietly giggles*...As small as that laugh just was, that's the only one I've had in the past 2 months, and it felt kind of good.
So, I'm depressed. Most of the time I cut. I've attempted to just end it, to end all the tears, all the misery, all the pain, and just let go. But I never followed through with it. 75% of the time, I just sit alone in my room, and grief about how stupid I am, or how I should just end everything, but I never have the guts to finish the job, or how nobody loves me, or would even care if I let go of this life. Meanwhile, 25% of the time I sit on the sofa in the living room and stuff my face with junk food, and watch tv, even though I hate my weight.
But anyway, this life sucks, and I have to live with it everyday. So just remember that you're lucky getting to live an amazing life, that is care free, with no problems or issues whatsoever.
So that's the Prologue. I hope you guys love it, sorry that its so short..... Please keep reading my book whenever there is more chapters.. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! <3 :-) Dez the Unicorn
