A girl started destoying her things in her room on her budget level like throwing blanket aggressively not throwing the crockery like the rich people do. And suddenly stopped and crying in one corner of her room but silently not bc she was in lot of pain . But bc of suffocation which was not caused by her but someone else. But by whom? But before that i just wanna to clerify that this girl is none other than me about two seconds ago. But why was I crying ?!The cause is the instant affection towards our world film industery people aka actor who came to fulfil their dreams in this industry but entangle with ownselves business . No one have time to think about other people business. When i call '' other people'' then i mean is unknown face , not affectionable, not good looking, not smart kind, not stylish , not cutest, not now famous ...
Later i felt depression on that level ,i almost thought that i should die.Because I wanted to move out to that depression but I cant . because its not my life whose car peddle in my feet but someone else. With those foot he or she could ruin your emotion with crueilty without knowing it.Because I am talking about my life, so it is not a story . It is my experience which i wanna share with you not bc i want to. but the fact is , if i dont, i wiil die with this burden of suffocation. I know it is sound like very selfish . Because I don't know how to come out that suffocation. May be u could help through your precious comment.
It is common for us people firstly known as admiror but later become fan .We are not just ordinary fans of some celebs. we are the minor major unknown part of this celeb life who was never recognise by them or the world .
i guess it starts when i watch that movie called descendent of sun .But i did not knew that it cost more than data loss of my net . the life was simple before i did not enter his lead actor ' songjoongki' life . Perhaps i should not typed his name on the youtube search list. Before typing i will clarify that initially i love the couple most. I know that it is not my right to say that who should be together or not .But i did not denied it that i wished in my heart that i want this couple together in their life. But i never thought that this wish was fulfillled in so much earlier before i saw it. this film was released in 2016 and i saw it today in 2020 . Do u know what happend to me when i got to know that both are married. I dont know why am i so happy to know that they are married. i am so happy that i just want to see their personal opinion videos. in short their togetherness moments . But when i got that video of divorce and the court decision will be come out in 5-8 months. i just feel misrable . my feelings are shattered. I dont know why?
but suddenly i came with the thought if i who just knew them three days ago only their acting skills, feel so suffocated then what happened to those who took celebs as a life member . what about those people who spend the half of their mature time, for just to see one smile, one handsake, one autograph of their favourite celebs .Is it easy for them.?!
When i finish this movie , i thought , it is so good like whole entertaining package. I thought I can learn from that. Because I am a half writer.(wanna be a writer).
The main point is that it is not my first time , it is happened to me always . But i just make some false information to my mind and give some time as much as it wants.It is not easy for me to spend loneliness and scariest time with that suffocated thought. But most bad part of that it costs my precious time .
I just want ban the fake rumor. if the news is not confirmed then dont leak out. if someone leak them then the celeb duty is that they just clerify that .dont hang the news in middle bc it is so suffocating to those who gives their life to you.
if u and someone else took time to think about that then just dont leak in any condition. if it leaks then just say it is rumour nothing less. i know that it is a lie but it is better to suffocation bc they Don't take u as a role they took you as their real role.
i just have a request to the authority that if not'' full'', then say'' half popularity''is because of that fan then why they have no accurate right to know the right news about his favorite actor 's life so that they could not be depressed with knowing half things.
I want a'' balance change'' for a limited time untill it would not balance for a certain time .something like that when a parent got to rid off the bad habbit of their child just have done one thing ''' distract the child attention.''' But problem is that"" what is distraction"" I don't know , yet may be u could help.
Now I Understand it is just bc of me. If I search the the writer name instead of actor then I have felt relaxed now. But why we have such kind of tendencies to attract the beauty desk rather than unknown face. I know it is the half fault of marketing who sells emotion whether truth may be wrong or doubtful bc it's increase their trp and lots of money.
I know after reading this. Some people thought that what kind of nonsense is this. Then I wanna just say that if we not notice the pattern of increasing trp table of this industry fame then we lost the real cause of existence of real life that is humanity.
some famous man said that'' in one sided love , there is one benefit that it is not distributable in two people and because of that your love becomes more pure. Then why it is not applied to that famous men who never said in his all movie promotion '' our movie is made with love, if u want to look that then look ,if u not then dont, why dont apply that love theory on him. why he always said that'' try that whole family would watch the movie ,even the neighbours are also welcomed."if u want to spread your love then it is right and if we want something then it becomes your personal matters . first u spread all your news but if we wanted a reasonable answer then u separate us and just say " no comments."I know it is not easy for u but same as me. i just scare to think that if someday i will not be able to control that depression then what i do ?
