[C] 'EUPHORIA'

H.U.R.T

Felix locked the door from inside, and as connected Seungmin and Minho starts to kick the door. After a few kicks, the door open and they are freeze to their place as they see darkness in front of their eyes. Han turn on the light, and once again they gasp in horror. The room is a mess!

Jeongin run to the bathroom and call for Felix, no answer except the sound of the water flowing down. He kicks the door and soon he flops into the floor! There's Felix! Felix! Fucking pale Felix in the bathtub and drown in the water!

"Lixie Hyung! Hyung!"

Jeongin cries but he tries his best to calm down and make his favorite hyung smile to him at least. But he didn't get the answer and soon after, he and Chan go to hospital while the remaining members stay at the dorm.

Hyunjin and Han starts to go through Felix's stuff under his bed, his bag and his locker. And they are gasp, there are tons of antidepressant pill, brand new razors, sleeping pill, vitamins and many more.

" Jin, did he consume all of this without us knowing it?! "

Han tremble down and he starts looking for other traces only to be freak out when he sees a bandage that covered with blood. Fresh blood and dried up blood in the basket, rusty razors are there as well, lots of empty bottle also there. Hyunjin take out his phone and he type each name indicates on the bottle.

His eyes teary when he sees the results, his Felix is hurting inside and outside but no one know about it. " Depression, anxiety, panic attack and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Han let out a big sigh, and he pat Hyunjin's head. " You can't be weak Jinnie. Let's clean all the mess while we wait for Chan Hyung."

Hyunjin nod his head, and he starts cleaning. Slowly his chest hurt, and his eyes create a pool of water, he's crying for sure. He can't bear to watch this; Felix is hurt, and no one know about it. Seungmin and Minho clear the dinner table, none of them want to eat right now.

2 hours later, Jeongin come home and he is crying loud. Changbin hug him and tell it's okay to be not okay for today. The member hug him as well, and soon after he talk. " Lixie Hyung needs to admit in ward. The doctor said we can go visit him tomorrow."

" Alright mate. Thank you for your hard work. Now, let's rest and take a couple days off. Tomorrow we will visit him. " Changbin hold Jeongin arm, signalling for him to sleep in his room. He knows the maknae is having hard time.

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The sun ray crack through the window and shines on Hyunjin's face, he wakes up and stretch himself before he wakes other members. They wash themselves and wait outside their dorm and after a couple minutes, they go to hospital. Jeongin's head stuck to the floor, he did not dare to lift his face to see his favourite hyung. This isn't what he imagines when Woojin left the group, he always looks up to Felix because Felix looks like he is able to adapt with the situation.

But now, he knows the real meaning of fake smile and hiding your biggest pain under a smile mask. Felix go through it alone and none of them are there to help him. They enter Felix's room with a hope that he wakes up and smiling to them but their dream crash into pieces.

Their Felix is there, but barely hanging on the lifeline. A doctor trying to find his heartbeat and they can see his rib cage; his skin clearly shows it. " Charge it to 200 joules!"

Dr Kim tries his best to find his heartbeat, and after a few trials a little line appear on the screen and nurses dressing all the open wounds. Chan take a few steps closer to his maknae and hold his hand. Changbin said thanks to the doctor and he hug Chan.

" SKZ - sshi, can we talk later? I want to know something about Felix."

Hyunjin nod, " We will go 10 minutes later."

" Chan Hyung "

Seungmin call Chan, they look at each other before smiling. " How's Felix? Is he getting better? "

Chan shake his head, " He suddenly had difficulty of breathing and out of blue he went into shock and what happen next just like you guys saw." Chan wipe Felix's sweat and kiss his forehead. He didn't ready to lose another member; he barely stands on his feet after Woojin left the group.

Then they walk to Dr.Kim's room, Chan greet him, and he asked them to sit.

Dr Kim show them a CT scan and they cannot understand it, he asked them.

" Did you see the dots here? "

SKZ members nod their head, and their face suddenly losing colours.

" I need to operate on Felix. This is blood clot in his head, and I need to remind you guys that the operation is high risk and the chances of he lost his abilities are high."

" What do you mean?! He's fucking fine! It just a few cuts and that's it!"

Chan losing himself and he's throwing fit.

" Listen, Felix's injury isn't occurred recently. From this spot, I can say this is from past injuries such as car accident, he falls into something hard or maybe he was beat to death. He easily tired and looks like whenever he can faint right now. Am I right?"

Seungmin nod his head, recently he saw Felix almost faint in practice room a few times. " Yes, sometimes he has nosebleed."

" That's it. After Felix condition stable, I will proceed with the operation. Please give your consent as soon as possible."

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I'm sorry for the grammatical error