The Start Of A Long Yet Worthwhile Love

Chapter One: A fateful meeting

   My names Alex and I wanna tell you all about a person I think about from time to time. It all started back about a year and three months ago, It was around October. I've always been kinda an introvert. I stay in and don't go out much. My family is nice although broken. One day after just getting out of school my phone rings, I look down to see my best friend calling from facebook messager. "Hey man what's up? I just got out of class do you need something?" He replied "yeah man, do you wanna hang out? Its been a while and I was wondering if your up for an adventure?. After he gets done talking I reply "yeah man, I just got a new vape meet you at 3:00p.m?". "Sounds good." He replies. We meet up and were walking around catching up. After a good lump of walking he says "oh shit, I forgot something at my sisters house." He asks if we can go get it. Yeah man no problem, lets go.

After about 10 minutes of walking we get there. A young girl with dark brown almost black hair and beautiful different coloured eyes, one green and the other greenish blue. We grab his thing and eventually somehow I get involved in marital arts with my best friend and that girl. To protect names I won't mention any more people. After a few months I starting loving her personality. I grew interested in her and over time I decided I wanted to be hers. One night me and my best friend were at the movies watching a dragon ball z movie. I already know she liked me and I decided to take my shot. It went well and pretty soon we started dating. It was like a dream.

Chapter Two: MY Best Times

  After about two months dating I loved it. At that point I was only really training for her. We had a picknick as our second date. It was a great dream. After the third month we started having touble. The trouble was me, jealousy and insecurities starded to take place. It started as small arguments and they just got bigger and bigger. Stress started to increase as I felt those jealous thoughts and insecurities start to grow more, eventually I started to slowly burn myself out. I didn't wanna take breaks though. I wanted to be strong for her. I wanted to stand by her side so things just got worse and worse. After some time I pulled myself back together over about a month. It felt as if I was repairing myself with supper glue.

Chapter Three: Birth control crisis

Over this time we had dating for about 4 months. I had a trip planed to go camping with some friends to get out and clear my head. Over this time her birth control starting messing with her and she was having bad mood swings and having a hard time. I called and cancelled my trip to take care of her. To me as long as she was okay then I was happy. She was my top priority. I took care of her, she was sad that I missed my trip but she ment more than that trip. Her health was more important.

Chapter 4: prom

We had been dating almost six months and we went to prom. I went in a suit and she had this gorgeous dress. Her and her mom made it. It was beautiful, she was beautiful. I smiled like a dork, we went off to prom after pictures(I still have them) and when we got there it was kinda crowded but not totally crowded. I was so nervous and awkward that I was really stiff. The lights kept changing rapidly which gave me flash backs and such. We danced and left early. I felt horrible my insecurities caused us to leave the dance early. I felt so bad. We got back and I felt worse. Over time things calmed down but I felt so bad for that.

Chapter 5: Her birthday

I wanted her to feel really special but I needed to do more. I wanted to do more but everything turned when I started to Over think. I cried and we didn't talk for a while. When we Finnaly sat down and talked we said it was a miscommunication but it was me over thinking. I wanted her to feel more special.

Chapter 6: My Birthday

My birthday was a day that took things for a turn. On my birthday she and I went on a date. We went to the mall. We were out and I felt really bad because we went to a shop that had something I had bad memories with. A double edged stainless steel butterfly knife. Getting insumed in happy thoughts then sadness because i was embarrassed for the way I acted. Later that night I started thinking about my folks and her and myself. Thoughts just started eating at me and I broke down. I cried a lot. I don't know what made me snap so bad but something in me broke. Over about the next week in a half things turned toxic because of me. Fight after fight after fight. Each time I felt worse and worse. I was being a different person. I knew I needed a break but I wanted to be strong. I felt our connection slipping and I tried to hold on. Eventually things took a bad turn and we broke up. I understood why, still to this day months later I think about her. I hope shes doing well and things are okay. She's a princess and should be treated as such. We haven't talked since that break up but if we did id cry and try to tell her how sorry I am. How much everything means to me. She baught me a bracelet with a pheonix on it. I wear it everyday because it reminds me of her.

My name is Alex and this is a true story about someone who is very special to me. Even if we never speak again I wish her success in everything. She deserves it more then not.  I'm the reason things went bad, she's a queen and always will be too me. I'm always gonna remember her name and keep that picture of our prom because its so much more then a picture, its the girl who taught me a lot about myself and someone who stays on my mind day and night. Be great my queen and shine bright my love❤