Hate you, Love me || Akira Yumai

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Here I was in my bedroom with one of my closest friends since moving. We'd just got into another argument, I accidentally scratched the side of her cheek, which made her bawl like a little baby. She was so weak, she needed me, more then she knew.

She was nothing without me.

"I-I'm sorry! I told you already I'm sorry!! I'm so so so sorry!!" She whimpered. This made me more angry, why did she apologize all the damn time?! How annoying can she be?

I snapped at her, telling her to get off of the ground, she ignored me and crawled into the corner to curl up into a ball. This was her fault, she's the one who can't take confrontation.

"Are you fucking dumb?! Seriously, Miro. Stop, doing it."

She looked at me still crying, at this point I started to feel sorry for the girl, she was probably scared of me to the point where she didn't care if I yelled at her anymore. I got down to her level, and pulled her close to me. She was so adorable when she looked this way, it made me feel like I was needed more then I knew. She held me tightly, like she never wanted to rip away from this moment. I ran my fingers through her cotton candy hair, she was so vulnerable, it was clear as day.

"Do you promise me?" I spoke, she looked up at me, her eyes clearly puffy from crying, she nodded her head.

"What're you NOT going to do?" Her eyes traveled away from me. She was clearly going to lie. But I didn't care, I just wanted to hear her say it.

"I'm not going hurt myself. I'm sorry." That's all I needed to hear. I pulled her even closer to me, putting my chin on top of her head. She was my best friend, I wish she knew that already. I wish she knew how much more we could be.

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After the whole incident, she left, she didn't say goodbye or anything. She just up and left. Hopefully she didn't run off to that place again, with him. I laid on my bed silently. Looking out my window it had gotten pretty dark. I'd been so focused on her, I hadn't even gotten any work done for school. Oh well, I'll do it tomorrow.

I closed my eyes, and tried to fall asleep, but I just couldn't.

I was thinking about her again. It's always her. With her stupid smile, and her stupid face. Everything about my dearest friend was stupid. But somehow I was still drawn to the childlike girl. Wait, what am I even thinking about?

I was being completely ignorant. I only wanted her for my sake, was that selfish of me to do? Just want to be best friends with her for my reputation? There was obviously more than that but,

No, that was only it, I needed to be her friend for my reputation, nothing more, nothing less.

She doesn't even have a talent yet, she needs me more than I need her. Without me, she's nothing.

Absolutely nothing.