"Savior" {Aizawa x OC}

Chapter 28: Blame

"NO! NO! PLEASE! NOT AGAIN! NO STOP!" I feel a man grab my shoulders and shake me. No I can't take this again, even if it is my punishment, it's too much.

"PLEASE! SHOTA HELP!" I cry for the only person that I think would help someone as lowly as me. The man still shakes me abruptly making my shoulders stiffen with pain.

"Hi-Hik-Hikar-Hikari!" I hear my name being called by a familiar voice and I open my eyes.

End of Nightmare

Opening my eyes, Shota is above me, hands on my shoulders as worry fills his face. I feel beads of sweat roll down my forehead as my tears fall down my cheeks. His mouth is slightly parted and his eyes are the widest I've ever seen them.

I look up at him, body shaking and I notice my nails have dug into his triceps making blood drizzle from the open cuts. I quickly take my hands from his arms and cover my face.

"I'm sorry, Shota! All I ever do to the people I care about is harm them." I sob into my hands, wanting nothing more than to do what Kaii and mother told me to do.

In this moment, I regretted pulling myself up from the balcony, but if I didn't, Shota would've died too. I wouldn't be able to live anymore if I killed anyone else. I feel Shota shift slightly beside me, he takes in short breaths through his nose.

"That's not true." His voice is deep and alluring, almost dark.

"What?" I ask, taking my hands from my face. He sits on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees and head on his hands.

"You don't harm the people you care about. The word harm means to physically injure, you never did that to them. Stop telling yourself that you killed them because you didn't. No one blames you and no one should."

"Kaii's mother did."

"She's just lost, her child was killed. She needed someone to blame, so she put it on you."

"NO! I KILLED HIM!" I scream sitting up from the mattress. Shota doesn't face me, he still looks forward, his chin laying on his interlocked fingers.

"Why do you blame yourself?" He bluntly asks me.

"Why wouldn't I?" I tighten my grip on the sheets under my hands.

"I don't want you to answer a question with a question. Give me an answer, and don't say because you killed them. That's bullshit in the first place and I will not hear it." I never once hear any emotion in his voice, which angers me even more.

"I-It's because... because I... I.."

"SPIT IT OUT, HIKARI! STOP KEEPING IN YOUR FEELINGS! THAT'S WHAT MADE YOU WANT TO JUMP OFF THE FUCKING BALCONY!" He abruptly shifts towards me screaming loudly in my face, I can feel his anger surging on his skin. I grit my teeth and shove him away from me, standing from the bed I point a finger at him.

"DONT YOU EVER FUCKING YELL AT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN!"

"THEN FUCKING TALK!"

"That's not the point! You will not speak to me in that tone of voice!"

"I wouldn't have to talk to you like this if YOU WOULD FUCKING SPEAK YOUR GODDAMN MIND!"