Depressed Izuku x Bakugou

Its just a joke...right?

Izukus POV

I sat down in my seat and was still so shocked that KACCHAN helped ME! I blushed but quickly put my head down so no one would see. "No no no! He would never like you! Stop thinking that you idiot!" I tugged at my hair and sighed. I wonder what he needed to talk about. I hope its not about what I said at lunch earlier! God what was I thinking! I just told Kacchan that I was the one who jumped off the rooftop, and that I am suicidal! Should i tell him I was joking? He would think I'm messed up in the brain but its the only thing I really can do at this point. All I know is that I have to get him to think I was lying or something...

Time skip my d00d

School is over and I was leaving the school when someone grabbed my wrist. I look at who ot was and it was Kacchan. He doesn't say a word as we walk to wherever he was taking me. We arrived at a empty park. He sat my down on a bench and asked, "Deku..are you...eh...actually suicidal...? Was it really you who jumped off the rooftop?" Ok Izuku. Keep you're composure. "N-no Kacchan!" "Then why the hell did you say that shit at lunch?!" He asks. "I....I...um...i dont know....I was just nervous is all!" I say as a response. "God you're such a fucking idiot! Dont joke around like that fucking Deku! Are you mental?!" He yelled at me. I just looked away. "Now you got you're dumb friends worried that you are suicidal even though you're not! So stop fucking around! Im going to tell them that you are ok so that they can stop worrying for nothing." He yelled. I was on ther verge of tears but I held them back. At the very least, Kacchan and my "friends" will think I'm fine. Everything will go back to the way it was. I need to make sure not to drop my "goody-go-lucky" act around them anymore. Kacchan pushed me off the bench and walked away. Since I haven't eaten or gotten any sleep in months, I was very weak and light. That's why I fell so easily when Kacchan shoved me earlier today. I fell of the bench and proceeded to cough. It was hard, but I got up from off the ground and walked home. When I got home, there was ANOTHER note like usual on the kitchen counter. It said,

Hey Izuku sweetie! Are work crew is going on a business trip for a week. I am really sorry that I couldn't see you before I left. There is money under the note and my ringer is always on so call me if needed. And I wrote Mitsuki's (Katsuki's mother) phone number on a sticky note and stuck it to the fridge just incase. Please be safe and i love you so much!

P.s. Do not forget to take you're pills they are super important!!<3

Love mom~

I throw the note in the trash and go to my room. I flop onto my bed and start to cry. "I cant do this anymore! I cant so this!" I yell outloud since mom isnt home. "Why is life so painful?! I don't ask to be made god dammit!" I yelled as I threw my bookbag across the room. I collapsed to the floor with bunches and tears streaming down my face. "I...i cant do it..."

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  I shakily got up and grabbed my razor from its hidden spot and since mom wasn't home, I didnt have to worry about her coming into my room unannounced. I sat down on my bed and looked at the shiney peice of metal. I pressed the blade to my skin and sliced. The crimson red liquid was trickling down my arm, onto my hand, and falling off my fingertips onto the floor. I was still sobbing so the tears and blood that were on the floor mixed together. Befor I knew it, both of my arms were taken up by cuts. So I moved to my upper thighs. I could see old scars on my legs and I traced over them with my fingers, leaving blood trailing along from my fingertips.

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There was blood everywhere. It looked like a murder just happened in my room.

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I got up and walked to the bathroom with blood still all over my floors, legs, arms, and hands. I hopped in the shower and watched as the once clear water turned red once it hit my bloody skin. The warm water felt nice on my back but it stung on my cuts. Once I was done in the shower, I wrapped my arms and legs in bandages and put on a black hoodie that was twice my size and a pair of jeans. "I need more bandages..." I mumbled. Then I realized that my floor was covered with blood. I got the sponge and towels and cleaned up the mess. I was exhausted but I still needed more bandages. I groaned and got on my flip flops and left the house with a couple of dollars.

Bakugou POV

I got home and was furious that Deku had been joking about that kind of shit. Is he fucked in the brain or something?! The old hag wasn't home and neither was my my pops. I walked upstairs and there was this putrid smell everywhere I went....but then i realized....it was me. I got into the shower and washed my hair and body like a normal person would do in the shower😑 I got out of the shower and put on some gym shorts and a tank top. I went down stairs and got some food and went back to my room and went on my phone. I got bored and decided to go on a bike ride. I put my shoes on and got my bike from downstairs and rode my bike around for a bit. When I came back I saw Deku leaving his house in a giant black hoodie and Jean's in 90 degree weather. Is be sick or something. I looked at him but he didnt notice me. He looked so dead and tired. I went back to my house and opened my window since it was freezing in my house. I turned on my tv and the weather report said there was going to be a cold front tonight. It was getting dark. I got up from my bed and stuck my head out the window for some fresh air. I saw deku leaving the store. "Hey deku! Whaddya got there?!" I said to him trying to waste his time. He froze in his tracks and looked up at me. He smiled and said "Dinner!" then continued walking home. I shrugged and put my head back inside my room and shut the window.

Izuku POV

I was walking out of the store of I heard a familiar voice yell my name. "Hey Deku! Whaddya got there?!" Kaccham said to me. What's it to him? I really didnt feel like talking but I remember I
that I couldn't act depressed around him or he will get suspicious. I threw a fake smile on my face and lied. "Dinner!" I continued to walk home. I got home and put the bandages away. I was so glad to be home. I immediately fell asleep.

Hey guys! Sorry this chapter was trash. I am running out of ideas😬😵 A little while ago, someone said they had some ideas I could use so maybe i wouldn't worry to much😁 Again, I'm sorry that this chapter make like...zero sense