Drabble

Let It Go

Lee Haechan that's my name...simple girl, a bit barbaric and cannot control words while being upset...that's how I describe myself. I was born in a bit complicated family...my dad is a great man and mommy is a bit hardheaded and such a perfectionist...all should be done in her ways but still she is a great mom for me...I have two younger sisters each with 4 years difference. One has married in such young age and the other has married as well recently.

My love life wasn't really good as I failed again in my last relationship. I might be too dramatic and perfect in my own ways and men couldn't stand bean for that trait. I wasn't complaining it was just "I haven't got a chance to meet the right person" I might think I have met the right one but eventually he wasn't "that right person" uugghh feeling a little complicated.

A week ago I was on a train going out station just to have a short getaway after working really hard for the past few years hahahaha I chose the small yet famous city to have my own holiday. I had written my plan to visit historical places around there and try the traditional culinary while trying to enjoy my days.

I was so into my world that I didn't realize there were two passangers in front of me. They were couple I guessed looking for the way they interact to each other. The man was really handsome, very tall and had tanned skin while the girl was ethereal (I couldn't find the right word) as she was extremely gorgeous and elegant.

Her skin was as white as snow and her nose was so pointed that I couldn't stand not to look at her several times. They didn't notice me for they were talking and seemed to be in their own world. I ignored them and put my earphones. A few minutes passed, the woman suddenly touched my knee.

"Hi...ehm may I borrow a charger? My man forgot his and I didn't bring mine as well," she asked.
"Oh, sure. Here it is,"I said giving her my charger. She smiled sweetly and hurried to plug the charger. The man was closing his eyes looking so relaxed.

"Sorry if we bothered you. By the way I am JaeJoong. What's your?"
"Ah, I am Haechan."
"Are you from Busan?"
"No, I am from Seoul. I just wanna go for a short getaway," I smiled at her while loosing my earphones. I turned off the music in my phone. It was rude while someone was talking and you were still listening to the music.

"Are both of you from Busan? Sorry to ask Eonnie. Do you mind if I call you Eonnie because I am sure that you're older," I decided to start the chat as the man next to her fell asleep already.
"Hahahaha, you bet! For sure you can call me that. Never mind coz I am older right? We're not from Busan. We live in Seoul like you. We just ran away."

"Run away? From? Ups...my apologies," I said in guilt. Mommy told me not to bother someone's matter except if they shared it with you.
"That's kay little girl. We run away from his engagement coz he disagreed to it. His parents insisted it though so we decided to run away."

"Mianhae, Eonnie. I didn't mean to interrupt. I am just curious coz both of you seem to love each other and compatible each other. Why did it happen?" I asked her foolishly.
"He comes from a very wealthy family while I am just an orphan. We met years ago while he was accompanying his parents to the orphanage I had been staying. It was love at first sight. I never thought we had to face this but I couldn't help him. I love Yunho so much that I can't live without him. His parents tried many ways to separate us but we always find a way to get back. Guess the universe doesn't want it," Jaejoong Eonnie replied calmly.

It seemed that the runaway thing didn't effect her at all. I knew right away that they had faced more than this. She continued telling me her love story that I shed my tears. Eonnie was all smiling, see me shedding tears for them. I prayed in my heart that they would soon find a way out and get the blessing they needed from Oppa's parents.

Eonnie yawned a bit and stretched her body then she held my hands and said, "Wish us luck, ehm. And I always pray for you that you too will find the soulmate you ever wish and be Happy no matter how hard things you are facing now and in the future." We hugged each other as our farewell coz soon we knew we would separate and God knows if we ever had a chance to meet again someday.

Jaejoong Eonnie excused to go back to Yunho Oppa's side as she was really tired. I let her go to her seat and soon after they both were sleeping soundly and serene.
"I wish I had a love story like them, not the runaway part but the unconditional love part that I am envy of," myself thought.

My first love was Jeno...we accidentally met in the bus, never thought that he was in the same university as I was, only different in major and the year we enrolled study. He was two years older; mature, able to get me agreed in every thing he said, for he always tried to give the best reasonable reason if smthg was against his will. I didn't complained though coz I knew all was for my good  sake. We seldom fought; but when we fought it was the ending of our relationship. I couldn't move on for years. Now, he was still placed as a special person that ever came to my life.

The next person was Mark. He was my junior school mate. We were pretty closed during our school days and separated as we both continued our studies in different cities. We met again in JuniorHigh group chatting. The more we talked on phone the more we grew closer and voilà we just happened to be official. Our relationship lasted for about 3 years - 1.5 years with sweet things and another half was full of disappointment.

He stopped chatting, talking and having communication. Every time we met it was always bad ending. I was very fed up as he kept on thinking about making love that I always tried in many ways to avoid it to happen. I wanted to have it when we were officially married later but he said things that really hurt me. He knew the reason why I rejected his desire but he didn't wanna understand it.

Last thing I did to stop this was that I sent him a letter telling him about all things in my heart plus apologizing about my all my wrong doings; the results was that he didn't care at all, not even a single message appeared on my phone. That was it!!! I thought our relationship was really OVER! It was really OVER!!

And here I was, on the train of my escapedes of stress caused by Mark. He was definitely a jerk; a really selfish person and a narcissist. Well, I couldn't care less...I let him free as if it was all that he had wanted. I didn't care whether there was a third party or no. Just like Usher said in hia song, "Why don't u go your way, and I'll go mine? Lead your life, and I'll lead mine."

I was fed up with my love life; yet I had to accept it anyway. Love life might sucked but it wasn't my entire life; I had good family, career, friends and many things to be grateful with. God might want me to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one. Someday I would be able to meet the person God had planned me to live the rest of my life with. So, I would just keep on moving on, focused on my life and in time all would be well.

I learnt few things from Jaejoong Eonnie that we had to fight if it was worth to fight, stop when it wasn't worth at all. Both Eonnie and Oppa had their fights in love coz it was really worth... I knew that they would get the blessings they prayed every single day. As for me, I would continue my journey while waiting for the right one to come.

I didn't realize I was falling asleep on the train. When I opened my eyes I didn't find Eonnie and Oppa. Guess they got down somewhere. I would get down a station before the last stop coz I wanted to visit some interesting places before I enjoyed my short getaway in Busan.