Writer Note: WARNING!!!! There will be some disturbing contest. This is based on a true story but I have changed all of the names. There may also be grama that is incorrect and sentences that do not make sense. Sorry. Enjoy.
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It's Rose here, and I'm going to tell you my life story. I'm not going to take out all of the bad things and just tell you the good things and make my life sound great and amazing. In reality, it is not. I have had ups and downs. I have been controlled and manipulated. I might skip a few things like my childhood (mostly cuz that's not interesting). To tell the story of my life I need to tell you the good the bad and the ugly. I should start at the beginning of when my teenage life went hectic.
In the beginning, everything was perfect. I had a guy (named Damin) who loved me, I had friends that I could count on and tell anything to. Everything was perfect. Damin and I were taking it slow because this was our first love. It was the first time that either one of us had, had any type of relationship. Sure there was the guy in primary that you "went out" for a day then found someone new that you had a crush on. But Damin, I had my first kiss with him. It was not what I thought it was going, to be honest. I thought it was going to be so romantic like we were having a picnic and he would just look at me laughing and lean over and kiss me, but that's not how it went. He walked me home and gave me a peck. But the weird thing was that he asked me if he could kiss me (that's not how a girl wants to get their first kiss at all they want to be romanced and surprised by it not asked if they could do it by whispering it in your ear after you have hugged). I guess he was just scared because it was his first time. He waited A LONG time to do it though. He waited for 6 months. Anyway, carrying on. We would cuddle and watch movies together and my mum (Alice) she would not like it when we were cosy. She would always say "you don't need to be on top of each other". At the time I thought that she was just worried because I was the first person in my house to ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend (i have 2 older brothers and one younger sister). It came near exam time. Alice did not like that Damin and I were "going fast" so she made us break up (with a few other reasons that are not important). She made me break up with him over text and I had another week of school left. I had to see him at school and Alice said that I was not allowed to talk to him let alone be near him. That was hard. having someone you love ripped away from you and can do nothing about it. I was broken. I decided that I would talk to him in secret (at this time I had my computer, not my phone). We would email each other and meet up at school to spend time with each other and talk. We got so used to it that we slipped, we accidentally talked in a room where my sister was. She had this look on her face that said: " you know you're not meant to do that, you know that mum has to know and I'm going to tell". The next period I was talking to one of my friends and sky (my BFF) overheard and she asked if I was still talking to him and she said that she couldn't keep it from her parents she doesn't keep things from her parents (I was freaking out at this point because both my sister and Sky knew and if she told her parents they would tell mine and I would get in huge trouble). She told. Alice came to pick me up that afternoon and she told me that she knew and that she was so angry at me for all of the lyings and sneaking around. For my punishment, I got put on house arrest until the next year (about 1 or 2 months) I was not allowed to go anywhere let alone do anything. She took away my computer and phone. I did what I was told and blamed it on him because I could not handle the fact that it was my fault. I was so angry at him and myself. In the months that I was under house arrest, I tried to kill myself twice. I got a knife from my room (they were kitchen knives for when I move out) and had it aimed at my heart (I was alone in the house, everyone had gone out) I lifted my arm ready to drive the knife write into my heart so that I would not have to go through the pain and anger and disappointment and the loneliness that I felt. The phone rang, it was Sky she was wondering how I was going. I had to lie and say good except for always being home. The second time I was in my back yard and there was a tree and I was going to hang myself until I heard someone crying. It sounded like a little girl (she was in the park behind my house). She was lost and couldn't find her mum. At that moment I imagined how my little sister would feel if I had done it. She would grow up in a world without her big sister to help her through the hard times and celebrate with her for the good.
The next year came around and I was aloud my phone. I still hated Damin. School rolled around, friends came and went. I started talking to him again. We got back together behind my parents back and it lasted about 6 months. Alice found out again. She didn't know what to do because she thought that what she had done would have made me learn. It didn't. She made me make a choice. It came down to them or Damin.
