To start with I have listened to Gus since 2016, so the thing is I was 11 when I first listened to him but trust me I could immediately relate to him so so much. The first song I heard was " let me bleed" and everything he said just hit me like a truck especially " I just wanna die by my mommas side tell her that I love her while my brother cry"
Cause that's was exactly how I feelt there and then but that's still how I feel.
I know many of you will say that I was to little to understand a shit but trust me as a 11 year old girl I had been thru to much, in the winter of 2015 i started to realize that my dad never really cared about me and my sister all he cared about was his wife ( the woman he cheated on my mom with when I was just 6-7 months) and as a 10 year old girl who had her dad as her biggest role model that shit hurted so fucking much. In the begging of 2016 my dad got divorced from his ex wife and told me and my sister that he would focus on me and her, but that just lasted for 2-3 month's then he meet his new wife and we wear replaced again, just after 1 month of my dad and his wife knowing each other he proposed to her. And I started to gain a depression. I found out about Gus through one of my old classmates and trust me I'm still so grateful that he introduced me to Gus. But yeah a year pasted by and it was 2017 my dads new wife hade moved in with her kids and me and my sister were treated like fucking maids, we were lucky that we had our mom at least, I had started to listen to lil peep even more and I was a hardcore fan even if my dad hated that his 12 year old daughter listen to a person like him, and trust me how many times I have ran away to my mother because my dad said that it was such an disappointment that I listened to " a druggy with ugly face tattoos that doesn't have a life" I was so mad at him. Gus is the only person that would ever understand me. November 14 I turned 12 and I was at my moms house and I was so thankful for that I was so happy. Then the day came November 15 2017 my angel was gone, for me who lives in Sweden it was the 16th of November when I got informed about it. Trust me my whole heart ripped out when I heard of it, he was the only person who would truly understand me.
Sorry for misspellings I'm from Sweden.
But anyways I will probably update tomorrow cause I have a Spanish test tomorrow and I need to sleep.
YOU ARE READING
Too my angel
Short StoryI'm just going to write down everything about my feelings towards Gus and how much he means to me. Read if you want to I think many of you will relate
