Alphas second mate

Chapter one -- finding his second mate

-Grayson's P.O.V.-

Pain is all I feel.

not just the emotional or mental pain but also the physical. it is heart breaking. has your heart ever hurt so much you thought someone was stabbing you with a knife 100 times? like a hole in your heart that can never be closed. happiness is a distance look.

half my soul, mind, and heart is missing and I don't think ill ever fill that space.

seven months has gone by...

when I witnessed my gorgeous mate being killed right in front of my face, there was nothing I could do to save her, nothing I could do to stop them. I blame myself everyday since that horrible day. all that I think about is hearing her scream...

I hate myself more as each day goes by...

I lost my mate...

my heart is constantly falling and breaking as the days go by, being alpha of the dark moon pack doesn't help my situation either, it actually makes matters worse if you can believe that... I've been hard on my pack since her murder but what do they expect me to be happy and cheerful after I watched my mate being killed my other half and soul leaving my world???

I don't think anything will make me okay again and that's what scares me...

"Alpha Greyson," Tyler my beta called as he walked into my office without knocking. I glared at him with my piercing brown eyes. "Don't call me that."

I watched Tyler's face look down in submission to his alpha. "Sorry alpha."

"What do you want." I spit at him.

"I just was wondering if you would be joining the pack for dinner, you haven't had dinner with the pack sinc-" I instantly cut Tyler off before he has time to finish his sentence.

my hands turn to fists on my desk. "Tyler, would you just leave me the fuck alone!? I will not be joining the pack for dinner not now, not ever again."

Tyler's face looks at me in sorrow expression. "Greyson... I know you miss savanna bu-"

I hold my hand up at him to silence him, my face showing fury as my eyes turn black my wolf slowly coming out. "Don't try and finish that sentence if you know what is good for you."

"alpha.." he starts again.

I let out a deadly growl. "Tyler! you have no clue how I am feeling, you also have no right to just walk into my office and tell me, the alpha what I should and should not be doing!" My voice shakes the room and Tyler flinches back at my tone.

I am not standing, my breathing heavy with rage.

"I-I-I'm sorry Alpha." Tyler says as he quickly retreats out my office door.

I swing my balled up fist into the wall next to me smashing it into a giant hole. I scream loudly letting all my bottled up emotions out. the emotions that have taken over my body every single day

regret.

sadness.

guilt.

before I even know what I'm doing I storm out of my office and down the stairs, not even bothering to look at anyone and out the front door.

"GREYSON!!" I hear Sammy my sister call, I ignore her... I need to be alone...

I get outside and shut the front door with a BANG. the cool refreshing air comes crashing against my bare skin. I didn't even think about getting a hoodie...

I walk to my car and slide in, I sit there for a couple seconds, my eyes watering but I wont let the tears escape, not anymore. I start hitting the wheel in anger and I don't stop until I feel my hands pulsing in pain. I fumble with the keys to my car and I race out of the pack house drive way.

I guess your questioning why I don't just turn into my wolf and go for a run to cool off? when Savanna died that day my wolf did too.

Odin.

Odin is still here, somewhere he has locked himself away heartbroken and lost not wanting to be found. I don't blame my wolf, if I could I would too.

what is the point in living if you lose your mate? I don't see a point at all.. I turned right onto an disserted road. the dark sky was among us and the bright moon shone in the sky giving me a little light.

the road started to get more narrow and all around me was dark tall trees.

I ran my fingers threw my messy hair. why was life so hard? why cant it be simple??

my senses heightened and became alert when a very soft scent filled my nose.

I sat up straighter in my drivers seat and looked closely at the road ahead of me.

the scent was faint but it smelt beautiful like chocolate and chestnut, a perfect combo...

where on earth was that coming from?

the scent started getting stronger and my senses were going wild. my hands going numb with tingles, I take a hand off the steering wheel and shake it quickly.

the dark shadows of the tall tress were shadowing down onto the ground, blowing softly in the wind.

my eyes suddenly snapped to the left side of the gravel road as the leaves began to rustle. that amazing scent was even stronger now!! my lungs were filled with it. I slammed on my breaks when a young girl came out from the leaves, running fearful across the road with a limp to each step.

I could see how much pain she was in, her body shaking her little body looked weak and broken.

that scent was at its strongest point now and my heart was racing at full speed as our eyes locked and I looked deep into her beautiful brown eyes.

MATE!

Odin screams inside me and I part my lips and whisper "holy fuck."

hey guys and girls here is my first chapter ever! what do you think?