Sounds of thunder are echoing in my head
Shadows are holding me tight
Tighter than a mother holding their new born baby
A soothing feeling, yet so horrifying
All I wish to do it free myself from these shackles
But their is a sense of relief
All I've known is fear and anxiety
As depression crept up on me as if it was going out of style
Thoughts of an unwanted death
Maybe even an unwanted life
Covering me like a warm blanket on a winter night
Maybe this is what I was meant to do
Suffer until the end
Go through bullshit after bullshit
Not knowing who is by my side and who would leave me
Hi dad, how are you?
It's your baby boy
The one you threw in a dark hole and covered up with your lies
All I've known is darkness
Hey Darkness, what kind of fuckery are we in for today?
No answer
Here one minute and gone the next
Wait, why am I holding this knife
Why am I thinking of these things
I shouldn't be doing this or even considering it
Time to get back to what I know
False happiness and a Fake Smile
Until next time, old friend.
