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{Dedication to: submissivezerk }
Love is a strange thing, can work in may ways. You could easily fall in love with someone . It could be the way they style their hair or smile or how they talk or how they handle situations, it could be anything about anyone. You don't control who you love and you don't control when you love them so go off on a wild one and tell people how you feel about them .
Warmth flowed through my lower body as it stayed put on a gamer chair next to Simon's gamer chair. We edited out recent sidemen video
"Hide and seek: the leaning tower of Pisa"
I laid my exhausted head on his shoulder and I watched the corner of the computer screen, watching the minutes go up and then it start again. It was currently 2:56am, I hadn't slept properly in 3 whole days and I was getting quite exhausted.
My eyes slowly started to doze off as the smell of cotton candy candles filled the half dark room. My eyes felt the pitch blackness overfill as I began to fall into a deep sleep.
Simon clicked his fingers quite loudly and I was flung myself up .
"What? What ? What is going on" I said in a panic. I slowly calmed down.
"Josh the video is nearly finished can you just help me finish editing then you may go to bed?" Simon asked as he span around on his chair so he was facing me
I nodded my head as my eyes began to slip again.
"What's got you so tired anyway?" Simon asked as he clicked away at the screen.
"I don't really know, I've had something on my mind for the a while now and it's been dolling on my mind" I said openly without thinking.
Simon turned around from the computer and walked up to me.
"What's up j?" Simon placed His hand gently onto my back and gently rubbed it, soothing me apst manipulatively.
"Oh it's nothing important, I think I'm gonna go down the stairs and get me a coffee. Want anything?" I slowly sat up from the bed .
Simon grabbed my arm and pulled me down, I jolted in fear, what the fuck?
"You ain't leaving until you tell me what's up" he exclaimed as he held me down onto the bed.
I began to feel my sweat build up as simons grip got tougher. I began to fight against him but it wasn't any good. Simon was a lot stronger then he appeared to be in real life.
I managed to push Simon away as the tears rolled down my eyes, I looked down at my arm and tied down my sleeves quickly.
I began to walk out of the room when Simon clasped my arm and looked down at it. Slit after slit after slit.
Simon dropped to the floor in tears, I never told him I had self harmed before I didn't want to ruin that picture of innocence I portrayed to him. He was broken
I looked down at him and hugged him, I hugged him so tight.
"T-thIs iS aLL mY f-faUlt" Simon sobbed into my shoulder , muffling the sound and dampning my rouge t-shirt.
I softly rubbed his back
"Nothing is your fault Simon, you don't chose my mental health, you don't affect it either. It's just a part of me Simon" I held the hug for so long.
I was not gonna let Simon beat himself up over this when he was not to blame at all, if it wasn't for him I probably wouldn't be walking on this earth.
"I think I'm in love with you Simon" I let gently
"I am in love with you Josh"
