You where never around,
Never seen you at any birthdays.
I grew up despising you,
But I want now is one conversation.
I know I'll never get to talk to you.
You left before I was born and ran.
I look at the Moon and pray you are to. I just wish I could have seen u in person, not mugshots like fuck. That's not a way a son should see his father, but it's all I had. You left and I had to deal with it. But see your dead now, and what's that leave me with huh, a emptiness in my heart. I look at my son everyday and feel jealous he has what I wanted. But I'm glad he has it. I just hope your in heaven at least. I just wish we had on conversation, and seen what you were like at least but I'm never getting it. Just I may not like you, you are my father no doubt and I love you. Just wish I could have told you that before you passed. I wish I could have forgiven you before you passed but I can't. I even know still can't forgive you. You are my father and I'm your son we just aren't normal because you never showed up.
