What then?
It's like I have these screaming voices in my head
I'm Confused as to why they exist
They aren't other people's voices
They're my own thoughts
They kill me inside
I feel as if I have no one to turn to
So sad
Lol naw
Not really
People usually tell me to suck it up
Which I do
But I want to scream And Shout
But most of all
I want someone to tell me it's ok to feel the way I do
I want to cry
I feel suffocated with these emotions
The things that replay in my head when I close my eyes or when I'm simply trying to live life
Haunts me
They call it ptsd
Trauma fills inside of me
We all have our own journey
If I were in another mans shoe
then I would probably think this was a piece of cake
People go through worse
It would be selfish if I said I didn't care
Care about what others have gone through
I do care but our paths aren't the same
I don't think that I can handle this
I didn't even apply for this
Am I the man for this
Pull it together
Fake the smile
There's a reason why happiness scares me
I wonder if I'm a bit naive or I just don't fuck with the disbelief
Don't pull the trigger
People depend on you
They'd call you selfish if you chose you
What if I do
do it
Pull it
What then
I hope you pull it together when missing me becomes bitter
