Dr.Smiley X Reader (continued)

Finally

Well after I got a good rest I decided whatever I wanna kill, minus well now I got nothing to lose lol. Just as I was wallowing in my self hatred there was a knock on my door. At first I was skeptical of opening my door and I even contemplated jumping out my window. But before I could think of that anymore I heard Dr. Smileys voice outside my door. Saying please answer he knows I'm in here because slender said I was talking a nap and smiley said he wanted to see if he could help me with anything. Okay I said out loud come in. So he came in asked if he could sit down I reluctantly said yes beacause I have major trust issues but the only reason why I said yes is beacause he has been the only one so far here that cares and to be honest I might have a small crush on him lol, leave It up to me to like a killer like that way lol. So he sat down next to me and asked me how old I was exactly I of course said 17 and he said he's 20 but he has a dealer lol I asked him a dealer for what? I was afraid that he was about to say drugs but he just said pot cigarettes and occasionally alcohol. Then I laughed he looked at me funny he couldn't tell why I was laughing but after I calmed down I told him I thought he was talking about hard core drugs tbh. Then he laughed too he said whatever I've never heard of a doctor being addicted to hard core drugs before all though that would be heavily ironic then we both laughed. I asked him after we calmed down why did he bring up that particular subject anyways he said there's a couple of reasons number one is that he knows I do the same things he does and the other reason being that he knows pot helps anxiety and depression and eating disorders all of which I am struggling with.