She sees herself in a room.
Noises that can be heard in the other room.
Boom.
Bang.
Screams.
Shouts.
Cursing.
She can heard them, it's always been like this for weeks, months, years.
She used to be scared of the noises, but now she is tired of the dam noises.
So loud, why did it had to be so loud? It ruins the mood, it ruins everything.
She wanted the noises to stop, she just wanted to be silent.
Silence, such a quiet yet calming word that rolls off the tongue very nicely....silence.
The only quietness to hide from the noises. Was in her room. Her sanctuary, the safe heaven.The only time she can be at peace but dreams at well gives her peace. Most of the time.
She can see herself melt in a endless pool of water. Float around without a care in the world.
The noises are getting louder.
She often wonder why it happens everyday.
Could it be her fault?
She try everything right.
Try to please everyone and help at any way.
She always smile at the world try to shine everyone day.
But sometimes it anit enough.
The noises isn't what scaring her.
It what happens when the noises had enough.
isolation, Abandonment, lost, unwanted, unloved.
She doesn't mind the quietness but it different when she completely alone. No one in the world but herself.
She wonders if everything will go away if she just let herself go.
Be completely off the line.
Be sinked in the water.
Drown.
Deep into the ocean deep blue sea.
And faded away...
The noises are getting louder.
