♡ self ship oneshots ♡

oh dear. i've fallen.

ship: nny x ben
theme: fluff?
source: jthm by jhonen vasquez
note: i dont wanna be violent irl this is just my s/i's crazyass personality lmao

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Dear Die-ary,

I don't like people, I've established that before. The touch of another human revolts me, and just the thought of being intimate with somebody usually makes me writhe. Usually.
You see, Ben is somebody I want to touch. I want to feel his skin against mine, even just for a moment. Fuck, even brushing against his arm makes my face flush with an embarrassing shade of red.

Ben has made it clear he holds ideologies very similar to mine when it comes to people. Fuck them and their disgusting desires, and their perception of good and evil. The less people on this planet, the better... Ben believes in this, yet he tells me he cares for me, as I care for him. Well, he's never outright told me "I LOVE YOU, NNY!!", as much as I'd like him to.

Forget that last part.

I would say Devi made me feel a similar way, but I never wanted to be close to her. That moment of happiness with her... it wasn't worth immortalizing. I wanted to force myself to kill her, freeze the brief and fleeting moment of joy...
...I want to make new pieces of happiness with Ben. I see happiness in my future, as long as he's there with me. As long as we're together, new moments of happiness and glee await me. Us.

Oh dear, I think I've fallen for the bastard.
Dammit.

Until next time,
- Nny