Piece by piece my soul is fading away. Not knowing why I am always so sad over this "thing" is frustrating and I want to punch every wall in my room. Am I overreacting or is everything as it seems? My tears turn my days blurry, like a night out I sometimes feel like I forget things that should be easy to remember. I know I am surrounded by people who love me but I still feel like a ghost, the only ghost in the world. I say things but do not get heard, I show things but I do not get noticed, I am trying but I am also giving up.
I feel like the ground during winter under all that snow. I have weight on my body, I feel heavy, but also cold, waiting to get out of there and into the warmth instead. Pain seems to be a part of this, of this winter I am going through - I am just waiting for summer and singing from the birds.
