As I lie awake at night I think. I think of my life. The sorrow and loss, the happiness and joy. And as I think I imagine colors. Every color I can think of comes into my mind, but none feel right. Red? No, too bright. Yellow? Too boring. Green? A spark flew through my mind. It wasn't THE color, but it was a start. I know you must be thinking, this girl is crazy. Insane. and you are right. Both were words to describe me. In my short life, I had become something I had sworn I would never be. At the age of five I was a singer. Talented and happy, drowning in the bliss if being loved and happy. At seven I was stupid and arrogant, in love with my reflection. I was happy to be alone. At ten I became doubtful for the first time in my life. When I looked around my classroom I saw children laughing and playing, girls gossiping and swooning over boys, boys being idiots and talking about girls. And then I saw me. Tall, elegant, beautiful and utterly and completely.........alone. I knew then that I wanted to be different. I wanted to be loved by everyone. I wanted to have friends and a boyfriend and pretty clothes and perfect hair. I wanted to be normal. Five years later to had all of that.
"Zoë Caroline Beyers! Get your fat, lazy, Stupid butt out of bed NOW!" Lainey yelled too loud for this hour. Too loud for any hour in my opinion.
I groaned and rolled out of bed.
"Yeah, love you too Lainey." I muttered sarcastically, as I entered the kitchen to see Lainey flipping pancakes like a pro.
"good you're up. We have a lot to do." she said, completely ignoring my grumpy comment.
She handed me a plate of pancakes as her sisters came into the room.
"ooh pancakes!" the chorussed in unison. Lainey rolled her eyes and handed Lucie a plate.
"Hey! Why does SHE get food first?!" Lexi wailed dramatically.
"Because I'm older" said Lucie, superiority and smugness written all over her face.
"yeah, but Lainey is my twin." Lexi said with a smirk. "And anyway, you're only older by a year and I'm more mature!"
"Says the girl who had to call me because she got her head stuck Ina turkey while watching 'friends'. Real mature baby doll.............." Buy the time she had finished speaking, Lainey and I were laughing with tears streaming down our faces, Lexi was beet red and Lucie was wearing her infamous smirk.
"It was once!" exclaimed Lexi, trying hard to keep her dignity. Hearing this only made us laugh more. Lucie had joined in and was trying hard not to cry and ruin her master piece of a face with running mascara. But Lexi's next words shocked us out of our state.
"you know? I think your right. Lucie seemed very mature when I saw her sucking faces with Bryan Keller last year."
Oh. My. Gosh. I could see Lainey turn back to the pancakes, shaking slightly with silent laughter. I myself was struggling with keeping calm. I was taking slow, shaky breaths to try to hold myself together. One of our many rules was that we could not make fun of or discourage a romantic relationship and Lexi knew that. So we couldn't laugh. In the end I had to leave the room. I took the time to wash blow dry and straighten my hair. I spent half an hour perfecting my makeup and ten minutes choosing my outfit from Lainey's clothes. She didn't mind. She was my best friend. Lainey, Lexi, Lucie and I had been best friends for four years. And that is how I always wanted it to be.
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Okay, what do you think? This hasn't had much editing and this was a thought I had while trying to get to sleep one night. I will only post if people want me to so please VOTE & COMMENT!!!!!! Luv y'all <3
