Hi, my names Ivory Black....... i've been used a lot through my life, i've had to look after my mum since a young age but i don't mind, friends have used me since primary school so i've kinda got used to it now, but i've got scars that just keep coming back.
i know nearly everybody thinks that theres something wrong with ourselves
and we all have those days when we feel like crap and then the next day we are happy or months one month everythings perfect you think that nothing can ruin this, next month you've been thrown to the gutter, so many times that has happened to moi and now i'm fed up and as i've said time and time again
'i'm not going to let them use me again i'm not going to fall for it and this time they won't use me they will really want me it will be a strong friendship that will last they won't take what they need and want then leave me convincing themselves that it was MY fault, that I caused the break up and that I don't have feelings and that i'm the BAD person'
well i want a proper friendship not a fake one thank you very much, don't we all?
well i know i do and i will do my dammed best to get one so suck that, this is when i get whats best for me and stop putting other people in front of me
no more 'Ivory go get this, do that' i will not be used anymore
you say jump i say "fuck off i'll jump when i want to bitch'
this is what they built me to be a cold exterior, this is how chloe turned to Ivory, you tell me what to do you'll regret it i'm not going to be pushed around no one no male, female, friend or boyfriend will hurt me again the only people i let in are my family now
if you want what i want read on friends we're in this together, we will not be USED.
chapter 1
