Defeated

Chapter 5

"Oh, haha. Coming up." He walks over to the kitchen area, watching in concern as Carla grunts whilst making herself more comfortable.

"Here you go." He hands over the coffee and lifts Carla's legs up, sitting down and placing them onto his thighs.

"Thanks."

"I love you, you know that don't you?" Peter says.

"Of course I do. But I wouldn't mind hearing it again." She smirks.

"I. Love. You."

"Aw bless." She giggles.

"So...you gonna say it back then or not?" He jokes.

"Mm. Might do." She raises her eyebrows. "Might not."

"Hey!"

"Only joking...I love you, baby. Better now?"

"I am."

"You're like a little kid, you know that? Doesn't matter that we can't have children because you're basically a child yourself." She playfully says but soon regrets it.

"Car..." He sighs.

"Sorry...I can't seem to say anything right today." She looks down.

"There's no right or wrong with what you say. It's just, I know this is all still so raw and emotional for us so you don't have to put your barriers up and make jokes about it." He explains, softly.

"I know...but you know what I'm like. If you don't laugh you'll cry."

"Yeah-..."

"And we've said all we've needed to say about it so theirs no point having another profound chat about it." Carla interrupts, sensing Peter was going to start talking about 'the positives'.

"I wasn't going too. But we can't just leave it on that, pretend like it never happened."

"We haven't!" She snaps. "Flamin' hell, I regret ever bringing it up now. Can we not even have normal conversations without it turning into some sort of depressing chat?"

"Alright, I'll stop. Just know how proud I am of you."

"Yep, as you keep on telling me."

One week had past since Carla returned home from hospital. However, today she was going back in because she has her first session of chemotherapy.

She sits in a leather chair with a wire attached to her arm which is what's used to administer the drugs. Peter was by her side, he'd brought some magazines and her fluffy grey dressing gown to make her feel more relaxed.

"Time sure does go slow when you're stuck here, doesn't it?" She groans, glancing at the clock.

"Why don't you try and sleep? That'll make the time pass by."

"Yeah I might do that, I'm absolutely knackered." She sighs, closing her eyes.

"You can go home, you know? You don't have to stay." She adds, her eyes remaining closed.

"No I want to stay. Like I said, I'll be here with you every single step of the way."

"You're the best boyfriend." She smiles slightly.

"I have to be with the best girlfriend."

"Ha ha."

Peter gently kisses Carla's hand, the hand that he'd been holding ever since they left Victoria Court this morning.

"Never thought we'd be in this position, ey?" She pipes up.

"Are you going to sleep or not?" He chuckles.

"I will but I was just thinking, I can't believe we're here. I never thought I'd be in this predicament." She sighs.

"Yeah, me neither. But we are so we have to face it head on."

"Mmm-Hmm. It's so strange seeing all these wires inside me."

"Yeah..." He whispers, not knowing what else to say.

He stares at her hands, imagining their life after her treatment was finished. He has plans, plans he wasn't going to tell her just yet.

Before he knows it, Carla's fast asleep. Her mouth falling open as she is at ease.

Peter can't help but have a smile form on his face, he'd always found her sleeping adorable. He stands up and softly kisses her forehead.

Sorry for lack of updates. Thought to make it up to you, I'd add a bit of carter smut because I know some of my readers like that. Leave reviews.