rants >:/

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love❤️💔
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i rlly don't understand the concept of love. like what are all these teens out here meaning when they say i love you? bc ik damn well it aint real love and it for fucking sure aint true love. i believe theres a difference between like, love, and true love. each mean a different thing.

liking someone is when you want to get their attention but after a little while you want a different persons attention. liking someone is just the feeling of attraction. loving somebody is a totally different thing. sure liking can lead to loving but they should not be mistaken for each other.

if you love someone then you like or tolerate every single itty bitty thing about them. to you their imperfections make them perfect. you will hold them while they bawl their eyes out into ur shoulder even if they wouldnt do the same. youd cross a ocean for them while they wouldn't even jump a puddle for you. youd go out of ur way to see them while they couldnt careless about when they saw you next. love is not always mutual however it can be. which if it is it can turn into true love whether it be a friend or more than a friend.

true love is when you absolutely love everything about the other person even if it annoys the shit out of you sometimes! true love is when youre both willing to fight for ur relationship and make sacrifices for one another no matter the price. if you truly love someone they are your #1 or at least #2 priority. yall cant stand even the idea of losing one another and if you ever did it would be absolutely unbearable. true fucking love is when youd both give up ur life for one another. there is a huge difference between liking. loving and truly loving a person. stop mistaking them for the wrong reasons with the wrong people!
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teenage love is a whole different fucking universe. a universe with like 3 or 4 different definitions of love. which are seen as: the way you love your family, the way you love your friends, and the way you "love" your "bae".

teenage love in an actual relationship doesn't involve actual love, thought, health, trust, etc. a thot will go out with a guy for a week and be talking to someone else the whole time. then she'll drop the guy and go to the one she was texting and start texting a whole new guy and it just repeats. and theres guys that do the same shit. it makes all of us good/nice people feel like we aren't good enough or like we don't belong. if you cant trust someone bc of the way they do in those types of relationships and it begins to effect your mental health then you're just fucked. that person you thought you were so "in love" with you will begin to resent as you become metaphorically broken. but no one thinks about it. teenage years to the bad asses are just about living life and having fun before they have to be adults. then the good ones are so in their feelings that going out and becoming a bad ass is their coping mechanism. teenage love is fuckin toxic.
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i know because ive been there. i thought i had true love with someone. nope it was just one sided love. i cared for him. i cherished every funny, sweet, happy, sad, meaningful moment. to have it stomped on multiple times. i gave him every chance he wanted only to have him repeatedly cheat on me and lie to me yet he still made me happy in the moments that I thought mattered. and now hes with the girl he cheated on me last time for and hes happy and that makes me happy. im so so so happy for him being happy bc thats all i ever wanted for him. and dont get me wrong. im not still hung up on him. i just still think about him sometimes bc i do love and care about him no matter his dumb choices.
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ps. i enjoy writing and ranting sooo yeah :)