ok so this is what i actually feel like and nobody knows cause all they would do is tell me to stop, suck it up, and that i'm "lucky" to be skinny...
hi, i'm luisa gomez and i'm about to be 16 in october and i am a skinny, ugly, girl .. i used to be fat when i was a baby, but as time progressed i became skinny.. Too skinny, and i really genuinely hate it so so much.
Everyone always tells me that i have an amazing body and how i should stop complaining about being skinny cause everyone else would die to be skinny like me. well i don't, i just wish i had a gorgeous, curvy body like every other girl i know..
all my best friends are gorgeous, have nice, normal bodies and calves.. while i'm stuck with bones and skin, i hate my body so damn much. i would do anything to have a perfect body like every other girl ..
sometimes i've had the urge to committ suicide but i don't wanna go to hell, but at the same time.. i don't wanna live in this body anymore. i'm sick and tired of everything.. Also i started talking to this really hot guy that a whole bunch of girls are after and i'm scared that he will see me the way i see myself and just leave me.. i've been having these sudden rushes recently and it's like a feeling that is yelling at me constantly, telling me to die, that i'm a skinny, ugly girl that no guy would ever want, that only dogs would want me since i'm basically all bones, Real women have curves.. Society is really really fucked up now a days..
