lou, my lou // larry stylinson

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harry's pov

i sighed loudly after i got out of bed, i had been staring at my ceiling for the past 30 minutes.

if i didn't have something to do, i would do my regular routine of going to my desk and writing. writing for hours upon hours.

sometimes i wrote about my feelings and other times i would write stories.

this day just happened to be about my feelings.

i sat at my desk and grabbed one of my many notebooks and turned to a fresh page. time to get started.

august 7th, 2019

my life is so boring and i absolutely hate it. i wish i could just disappear forever.

i kinda did.

i had been off of social media for more than a year but i was still doing projects and such.

i wish i didn't have to though, i am so tired of it.

i am tired of the fake ass people around me and the fake ass smile i wore. nobody sees pass my fake smile and honestly.. it hurts.

i'm not blaming anyone for not helping me out but it would at least be nice for someone to check up on me, you know? at least see how i'm doing and such.

then again, i guess that's also my fault. i blocked everyone out of my life. niall, liam, my mom, my sister and even my fans.

i didn't block louis out though, he ended up blocking me out instead.

it hurts thinking about him because i really missed my lou so much, words can't even explain how much i miss him.

i wish the world wasn't the way it is. i wish people weren't judged for liking the same sex. who the fuck cares? it's their life and they should live it how they want, its not like we are granted much time on this stupid place anyway so we might as well make the best out of it, right?

they say all men are created equal but i don't feel equal and i bet you don't either.

life sucks and i been holding on tight but how much more can i really take? however, for being the mess that i am, i think i been doing pretty well. i mean, i'm still alive, right? that definitely counts as something.

one step at a time.

that's what my lou would've told me.

anyway, be better than me. go out, have fun and live life. don't let someone control it. don't care about what others say, this is your life and you should live it the way you want and to the best of your ability.

i wish i would've realized this sooner. - H.
p.s. take this advice and run with it. you really only live once so this is your time to be you and live your life.

i sat at my desk, writing my heart out but then deciding to transition to my story book. this would be fun.