The Judgement

I felt sorry for myself because of what I've experienced,I felt the sadness in me, and sometimes I even wonder am I still worth it to be called a virgin?

There are multiple times that I pitied myself and blame myself for it

Grade 10*

We were discussing about sexual harassment,sexual abuse,child abuse etc.

I'm on my seat thinking about it... Because whatever I do It's still coming back to me and while we're discussing this topic I thought of the things I should've done,what I could've done to push him away from me but what's done is done and all I can do is to try to avoid thinking about it

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"Anong gusto mong kuning course kung papipiliin ka na?" Rinig kong tanungan ng mga kaibigan ko

"Ako accountant" sabi ng isa

"Ako chef"

"Ako engineer"

"Ako doctor"
Pasasasagot nila habang ako ay nananahimik sa upuan ko habang nakatingin sa kanila

"Oy ano ka? Ayaw maki-join nito eh"pag angal ng kaibigan ko

"Oo ngaaa"pag sangayon ng isa
"Korek!isang malaking tsekk!"

"Wala pa eh hehe di pa ko sure at di pa nakakapag decide hehe" sabi ko na lang

Suddenly napaisip ako ano nga ba ang gusto kong maging trabaho someday??

'Gusto kong balikan ang lalaking yon. Gusto ko syang mabulok. Gusto ko syang mag dusa at I want him to die in conscience but I won't be the one who's going to do all that I'm just going to be a part of it

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College na ako at aaminin kong sobra akong nahihirapan sa inaaral namin... Sobrang daming kinakabisado at ginagawa

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"Miss Dela Cruz!!! You do know that it is NOT Allowed to sleep in my class! Detention now!!"

"Miss Dela Cruz!! Are you paying attention??"

"What?? Are you just gonna stand in there? Did you not memorized?? Andami dami nyong time pero hindi nyo ma-memorize yan?! What kind of student are you?!"

But all through my hardworks and all through those hurtful words I still graduated and became a successful ~ ~ ~

"Is Counsel for the Petitioner ready?" Asked by the Judge so I stood up and say

"Yes, Your Honor"

He proceeds

"Is Counsel for the Defendant ready?"

Tumayo si Att. Madrigal at sumagot din

Pumasok na ang Defendant and sworn the oath to begin the trial