Because of You

Would I leave it all behind?

Euphoria:
(noun) a feeling or state of intense excitement and happiness.

FREDDIE:
I've always been troubled,ever since I learned to count my teachers have noticed that something was strange. I like to count,even numbers are my favourite,other than that I get a nervous breakdown.

I've seen 10 psychiatrists in my 19 years,every diagnosis the same, intense OCD;which I think is total bullshit,but I do know that if I don't switch my light on and off 6 times my family will be murdered by n psychopath while we sleep.

Pills,grown up candy,for some reason everyone takes them,some we're supposed to take,some that we aren't supposed to take. The amount of pills I've taken I'm surprised that I'm still breathing,fuck,how aren't I dead yet?
The amount of euphoria I feel taking some kind of pill is incredible,it's my addiction,I can't go a day without taking some kind of drug,whether it's a pain killer or something stronger,it doesn't matter,if it gets me high,I'll take it.

My dealer's the local fuckup,he's a few years older than me,we know each other from high school,well,before he dropped out,Kellin Jonez,22 years old,the brother I never had,the reason I went to rehab,for the second time.

Before I relapsed I was 60 days sober,god I was so proud of myself...then he came...Dom..the boy who stole my heart, injected it with drugs,it got so worn out he threw it in the street,left to decay.
Hurt like shit,I still think about that night where everything went wrong.

I was 17,he was 18. I was on top of the word,I was on my 5th tab of Acid,feeling like the world was melting around me,total bliss,then I saw Dom's face...a snake,ready to strike,venom dripping from his fangs,waiting for the right moment to bite and kill me.

" Freddie,are you okay? You've gone quiet? " Dom questions,slowly stroking my cheek,it feels like he's pulling my skin off of my face,yet I do nothing to stop him. "Yeah,just tripping,what are you seeing?" I try and focus on something other than his face. " Freddie, I can not even start explaining what I'm seeing,fuck,Kellin wasn't kidding when he said you won't want to come back from this trip,I can literally see your thoughts,you're scared aren't you?",He moves closer to my face,my breathing starts getting heavier. "Nah G,I'm not scared,why would I be?" I try and calm down,but he keeps moving closer and closer.
Next moment he was on top of me,everything stops,time suddenly doesn't exist anymore,what the fuck is happening?
Time suddenly comes back,I feel Dom's lips on my neck,is this happening,he's actually kissing me,not my lips,so I know this is only lust speaking..
"Dom..." no reply,I try and move away from him,but he pins my body to the bed,I start hyperventilating,shit,this can't be happening,not like this,fuck,fuck,fuck.

"Dom,get the fuck of me before I scream" I exclaim,he pulls aways,lust filled eyes. "What the hell,Freddie? Isn't this what you wanted? Kellin told me you have a crush on me."

Fuck you Kellin
" Yeah I do,but jeez Dom,calm down,can we not bang while I'm tripping literal tits?" I get up from the bed and go to his bathroom,looking into the mirror,I see someone I don't recognise,she's tired,lips chapped,hair greasy.
Shit,I really need to go home.

"Hey Dom,sorry,I gotta get going" I say while walking out the front door.
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Ever since that day I haven't been able to be alone with Dom,not after seeing him as a snake,that's bound to mean something?
Kellin said it was only the acid talking,but I know that my subconscious was trying to tell me something.

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