she sat on the side of the pool because she was uncomfortable
the heat of the burning sun was the least of her problems
she sat on the side of the pool and longingly watched her friends have fun
she knew damn well they had one big thing that separated them from her
45 agonizingly slow minutes with no one and nothing
she just stared at the green and white print of the umbrella
she sat on the side of the pool and was brought more discomfort
she had to remove what she referred to as her safety blanket
her father's faded hoodie that smelled of his cigarettes and cologne
45 agonizingly slow minutes she sat trapped in her own head
she sat on the side of the pool and thought
she knew what she was doing was helping her physical health in some way
she knew that what she was doing made this "infection" worse
she sat on rhe side of the pool that day and relapsed again
but no one will ever know
because she's been convinced no one cares
