Happy for You (KatsuDeku oneshot)

Stupid Nerd

                    Bakugo's POV

Stop. Stop it.

Stop giving me your smile. It only makes me fall for you more.

The way you grinned from ear to ear,  that brunette wrapped around your arm. That image engraved itself to my mind. Along with a disgusting thought.

How I wished it was me.

I didn't mean to. I never wanted to. If only, if only I was able to get rid of this terrible thing in my chest.

But I can't. And the worst part is, I don't regret falling for you.

It's all your fault. Your annoyingly beautiful eyes, the way they seemed to shine even through the darkest of nights. The way your freckles scattered across your small face. Your messy deep green hair. How you easily become flustered at the tiniest of things. The way you mumble and moved your hands around when you talked. How you stuck with me and held out your hand despite all the times I shoved you away. How it seemed like you brought the sun along with you no matter how dark the depths you went into.

It's all your fault.

"Kacchan.", you said once again to me,  using that childish name I secretly loved so much. How it brought back memories. I could still hear your high pitched voice, asking for help or showering me with words of praise.

"What do you want Deku?", I replied with so much hatred as to keep my voice from cracking.

I didn't even bother to meet your eyes. Actually, I can't. I was afraid of what my eyes would give away if I did.

"I know our friendship wasn't exactly much, and we eventually drifted away during middle school. You probably maybe even hated me."

No, no didn't. I never did. I'm sorry for everything I did. I'm sorry for bullying you. I was just afraid. When you wanted to help me, I thought you were becoming independent. I thought you wouldn't need me anymore. I didn't want you to leave me. I wanted to be the one to protect you. I became your hero, and I loved it. I wanted to remain heroic in your eyes. My pride and ego got in the way of what I wanted you to know.  I'm so sorry.

"But I want you know, that despite everything, the way I see you never changed. You're still my Kacchan!", you gave another of those sunshine filled smiles that, I swear could have blinded me.

No. No, you should hate me. You should despise me. I did all those horrible things to you! I'm a terrible person. You're too kind, too innocent. I don't deserve forgiveness, but that's just the way you are.

"You're my inspiration Kacchan. You were one of the reasons why I became a hero. "

Idiot. You were my reason why I even wanted to be a hero. You made me feel heroic,special. You gave me a purpose, you made me feel..needed.

"Even when Almight became my favorite hero, you were always my no. 1 Kacchan!".

I couldn't take it anymore.

"Get to the point nerd. ", I said.

"Ah, right.", you cleared your voice for a while as a tiny hint of pink appeared on your cheeks,  clearly flustered realizing you were talking too much. How I love it.